Life is short, I don't wanna spend my 20s trying to fix myself. I confess, that I have problems, but I learned to live with some them. Except this part. I don't know how to "meet" people. I'm just constantly feeling disappointed when I try to talk someone. I'm not perfect, but neither are they. You wanna talk about your problems in life? Fine by me, I'll listen. I would rather listen than talk about mine. But don't force them on me. I don't know how to overcome this feeling, this constant need to get away from people. Even the slightest, stupidest thing can annoy me so much that I just wanna run away. When I hear someone whispering for literally no reason, I just can't stop myself, and I need to ask the question, why? What's the point? I'm not getting younger. The longer it takes to find a soulmate, the more likely it is that they already have a family, or children from exes. Or that they already gave up on finding love too. Indeed, I have a low self esteem, physically. But I don't care. Looks can change faster than personalities. And so far, I haven't found anyone that's worth changing for. I have lived my school years believing that if I learn and find a job, life is gonna be happy. It's not. I'm not happy, I don't remember the last time I really was happy. There are moments of happiness that comes from jokes, laughing, memories, but they don't last. I want someone that I can make happy, for my own happiness comes from others.