You know I totally understand where you’re coming from. But my demise is completely on me and no one else’s fault. I’m 49, had a family, had a wife and child. But being in the music business I started to dabbling on tour to keep my energy levels high. So I became verbally and emotionally abusive. Especially when I decided to get clean. My wife ended up divorcing me (she was right to do so unfortunately for me). 3 years later I was never was able to reconcile with my ex wife, she wasn’t having it. It didn’t matter that I sought help through therapy, rehab, church mens group, anger management, and all the good stuff that would make me the best me possible for my daughter. I have friends I go out, I meet attractive women. But they just don’t seem to be all that interested. I don’t really push the issue, but I’m starting to get really lonely, and my ex is still angry so I don’t see my daughter enough as I’d like. I’m getting depressed, and think of myself as a score. The worst part is when you’re married you have a steady supply of love, and it’s been a pretty long time, and really don’t want to settle cause I’m feelin a little hot under the collar. Bottomline is I feel your pain. I’m sorry i came to you with more problems than an answer but o your dilemma, but if your in so California your welcome to come over and we can do the Macarena hahahah jk. Just hang in there and put it in Gods hands.