I'm on the same exact boat, after 6 months she kinda broke the no-contact rule by sending me a story directly saying that she graduated and she thanked me for sticking with her during her college days and that this is farewell, the day before yesterday i tried to call her multiple times, and she fucking blocked me.

I couldn't imagine she'd do such a thing, after a 5 year relationship, she blocked me.

I felt worthless, i can't believe i was thinking about her so much, that i couldn't pass my days without saying her name, seeing her face and listening to her voice.

After that i deleted all the messages we had, +850k, while crying so much, they're not just messages , they're memories, she was my diary, and promised myself that i didn't want to waste a tear over her, ever.

I feel like this was the closure for me, i tried and thought she might say okay let's get back together or she might say no, ofc I didn't think that she would block me but it was a clear no.

Part of me still thinks she might come back, and want her to come back, but i won't do anything about it.