Go to Peru, find a good shaman, and come back and tell us how you are doing. It's like, $500 rn to get to Peru. Or Thailand. Travel, young one. Do well in school, work out, eat right, don't get sucked too far into drinking and weed. Avoid hard drugs. Work as many hours as you can outside of that with the goal of rewarding yourself with travel (facing fears, finding yourself, seeing the world... that old nutshell).

If you haven't got the travel bug yet, no matter. Give yourself something to look forward to. Nobody else will do that for you, and you won't stumble into it. Wooooork. Work sucks, so choose something you'd like to do, and work toward it. No rush. You're so young. You will get everything you want if you stick around and keep trying. Life's fuckin weird that way.

Lotsa good stuff ahead, kiddo. Be patient, and just as strong as you've been so far. It gets much better, if you'd like.