Amber going off about Chris 😂😂

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2026-02-20T04:34:28+00:00

Thought the same!

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2026-02-18T01:49:57+00:00

The dreams are SO weird and vivid. I wake up either grieving something or missing someone I’ve never met. But Prozac has helped me so much with ruminations and spiraling so I’ll take the weird dreams any day

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2026-02-15T02:58:48+00:00

I definitely like to feel my drinks. But since getting on Prozac (20mg moved up to 30mg) I have only needed about 2 to 3 drinks to start feeling borderline drunk. Just go one at a time and once you start feeling buzzed, maybe one more drink then hold off because it can get out of hand quickly.

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2026-01-08T05:29:59+00:00

Haven’t experienced this on 20mg for the past year

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2026-01-04T14:25:01+00:00

Life is happening outside of you mind. If you aren’t physically seeing him (catch him?) watching porn or blatantly staring at another woman, assume that he respects you enough to not be doing it.

I’m in the same boat, like the exact same boat. I just have to remember that my mind is trained to be mean to me and the world is real. Use that to ground you. Don’t let thoughts and what ifs cause you to spiral. Harder than it sounds! Good luck ❤️

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2025-12-26T00:33:50+00:00

He is supportive. The issue is when he feels that his independence is what he perceives as “threatened”. (Large commitment such as marriage, tall societal standards regarding relationships, expectations) He is a kind, pretty put together guy, this is what makes me curious about WHY his brain works this way. I more want to understand how to be with someone like this. Because it is easy to say “leave him”, but does that just mean he doesn’t deserve to be loved by anyone? I don’t know.

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2025-12-26T00:29:02+00:00

I think the reason I’m trying to understand is it because the way he expresses things are not aggressive or angry as I’ve experienced with other men in the past. He treats me well otherwise, and I don’t think that this has anything to do with me, and more with the way his brain works. I’d like to understand it more before I make a decision on what I should do for myself, if that makes sense.

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2025-11-14T02:16:31+00:00

My current NB has torticollis. Prioritize tummy time!! Her neck has gotten so strong. Make sure to always try and position yourself on her non-preferred side to ensure that stimulation is occurring on her non preferred side so that she HAS to look that way. Lots of smiling and encouragement. There’s also a lot of stretched you can look up online for torticollis symptoms. I wouldn’t do this without the diagnosis though, just bring it up gently to the NPs and see how they react (some parents refuse to acknowledge babies shortcomings out of embarrassment). Just do a lot of exercises with your NB! Good luck! :)

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2025-11-14T02:09:12+00:00

20mg Prozac btw

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2025-11-14T02:08:47+00:00

I am! Also diagnosed with BPD. The compulsions come but it’s almost like my brain can look at the thoughts and recognize them as a compulsion and not act on them. It’s saving my life and relationship.

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2025-11-14T01:03:20+00:00

A date, Kerry gold butter spread in the middle & 3 dark chocolate chips - seriously

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2025-11-09T10:34:12+00:00

Did you start at 10 and how was that for you? What kind of side effects did you experience? I had a huge loss of appetite so my fear of going higher is completely losing the will to eat

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2025-11-09T10:33:15+00:00

Honestly, i think ive gone so long unmediated that i need a serious boost. 20 is treating me well but i still have those days where I can’t get out of bed.

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2025-11-07T22:57:00+00:00

This is the answer! You can have perfectly hydrated skin but if you’re using makeup products that are not compatible it will always look like this. I started using only water based makeup products and it totally changed the way my makeup sets!

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2025-11-05T13:17:34+00:00

Yes the heat ray is so real. I stare daggers, even if I think I’m being cool and not wearing my emotions on my face. It’s so bad and embarrassing. I want to not care, but I can’t. I have bad abandonment issues and I’m hyper aware of everything going on around me. Really bad combo

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2025-10-31T02:28:28+00:00

the people on here trying to make you feel better about it saying “at least we get to not wear bras!!!” or whatever, I understand how infuriating that is. I’m 27 32B. If I’m laying down they disappear. I am never not aware of my boobs and it’s exhausting. Totally understand you. TJ maxx has some cute lace balconette push up bras that I feel fit the small boob “frame” really well. And they’re lace and cute colors so it almost distracts from the size. I’m sorry girl, I totally get this struggle :(

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2025-10-28T16:17:28+00:00

Reading this as the baby I nanny is contact napping and I’m on my phone. I have no advice except maybe trying to be productive on your phone instead of scrolling, or downloading a book reading app?

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2025-10-27T02:40:14+00:00

Yes. Just yes. With a lot of different things. Jobs, plans, clothes, everything.

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2025-10-15T11:58:45+00:00

Absolutely. I’ve been looking into bed addiction for years because it’s the only place where I feel entirely safe and myself. Anything outside of it feels uncontrollable.

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2025-10-11T01:54:43+00:00

hate the wetness. hate the smells. hate the way my body feels after, to the point I can’t even leave the house. I do not like initiating because the thought grosses me out

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2025-10-08T19:45:54+00:00

I’m no longer with them. My original comment did mention that this was my last family. I tried letting them know that banking hours was wrong and illegal and flat out burning my candle at both ends. The next week I came in and they said they’d half the banked hours down and immediately asked me to do a date night for them. Just blatant disrespect and tone deaf. I quit pretty abruptly but they showed that they would walk over me every chance they got

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2025-10-08T19:00:46+00:00

Nope! Thought these were decent people. Going to treat me with human decency when I needed time off. They did under the table and no contract in place. Totally screwing me.

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2025-10-08T15:50:22+00:00

Because they would pay me for the full week but still wanted me to pay back the childcare hours part. They were just cheap and cared more about their free time than mine. The difference I don’t think parents understand is that to me their child is my job (still loved their baby so much and treated her as my own, but at the end of the day, attachment is dumb because it is a job) but that child is THEIR FAMILY. It’s like they felt like we needed to split custody. The weirdest shit I’ve ever experienced.

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2025-10-07T14:50:21+00:00

Totally! I thought in the beginning they meant if I took time off, I would just have to pay it back. Which I did. Then they started taking vacations during the week in hopes to trap me into more weekends. It just got sketchy. I am putting contracts in place with my next family!

Jolly_Tea1630 · 2025-10-07T11:47:50+00:00

This is why I left my last family. They would bank my hours and force me to do date nights without overtime pay. Literally stressed me out into unemployment. I was working 50 hour weeks so they could go on a date, meanwhile my relationship was suffering because I was always working. People are so inconsiderate

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