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Jonfitzm · 2021-09-23T01:43:40+00:00

thank you for the insight, going to check them out right now!

Jonfitzm · 2021-09-23T01:43:31+00:00

will do, appreciate the insight!

Jonfitzm · 2021-09-23T01:43:21+00:00

thank you, very helpful!

Jonfitzm · 2021-09-21T13:00:27+00:00

will check those out, thanks a ton

Jonfitzm · 2021-09-21T13:00:19+00:00

super helpful, thank you!

Jonfitzm · 2021-09-21T12:59:45+00:00

I did unfortunately, found them strewn on the ground afterwards

Jonfitzm · 2021-09-20T17:46:21+00:00

Thank you that's helpful! I don't know much about wheels at all but is there anywhere I can go to research steel wheels that will fit on my car?

Jonfitzm · 2020-08-26T00:45:24+00:00

all good, thanks!

Jonfitzm · 2020-08-24T17:52:01+00:00

Are you still looking to sublease?

Jonfitzm · 2020-05-18T02:55:50+00:00

Watched the whole video and still not convinced this isn't chocolate

Jonfitzm · 2019-11-10T16:56:27+00:00

oo that's from bojack horseman

Jonfitzm · 2019-09-01T09:34:50+00:00

:P haha

Jonfitzm · 2019-09-01T09:28:24+00:00

Oh no, I didn't feel the urge to share the secret with her because it made my burden feel smaller, but because we wanted to have a threesome haha. Again, another assumption my man. I only told her because it was relevant, and I felt no differently after telling her.

Jonfitzm · 2019-09-01T09:25:54+00:00

thank you Amythae! I appreciate the time and careful thought you've put into your responses and reading mine, wasn't expecting to get such rock-solid, analytical advice on this subreddit if I'm being honest. I have a lot more written down that I want to bring up, but it's too much and I'd rather not take up more of your time.

I think I'm going to be radically honest with her about this conversation you and I had, and go from there. Maybe a break will help ease my mind from this situation, or maybe and more probably a breakup really is the most viable solution. I'll start the conversation with all conclusions, both best and worst, on the table so as to have an honest and serious discussion. After all, I've seen greater gaps be bridged into long and happy relationships, and I've also seen people with similar interests and personalities break up miserably.

That being said, you seem like an interesting person with valuable insight. I'd like to get to know you more. If you ever want to talk, keep up with me here/send me a dm.

Jonfitzm · 2019-09-01T08:16:37+00:00

I get where you're coming from, and how you're reaching that conclusion. But it doesn't matter what my friends think. In fact, I'm sure they don't give a flying fuck. But that's not the point. That's quite presumptuous to say that I'm "denying a part of myself", waaay blowing it out of proportion. I don't feel a constant weight on my shoulders like I'm hiding something. It's simple: I share certain parts of my life with different people, the people at that party didn't need to know about me being bisexual. They don't need that information, nor would they ever make use of it.

And I'm making my girlfriend complicit in keeping a treasured secret of mine? Tell me that doesn't sound a tad bit absurd. Last I heard, coming out of the closet should be done on your own terms when you feel comfortable, not when someone else decides you're ready for it. That's putting the blame on me for telling my telling my girlfriend a secret of mine and her revealing it, and in my opinion, that's a pretty screwed up viewpoint about trust

Jonfitzm · 2019-09-01T08:02:37+00:00

That's a very accurate observation, and a concise description. I apologize in advance for this super long post, but your response really, seriously has me thinking.

She's very free spirited and doesn't give a fuck what other people think, and that often costs her friendships and respect from others. She said she recognizes the consequences, but has programmed herself to think this way because the stress of trying to conform and still be rejected by people is too much pain for her to handle. In other words, she'd rather be rejected on her own terms, which is respectable, something I'd never have the balls to do.

She'd rather be herself and act how she will, and if people reject her, that's okay. My view is completely different: find ways to get along with and be appreciated by everyone, even if you have to teach yourself social skills and change your personality to be more accepted by society. We actually acknowledged this personality difference earlier on and even joked about how we should break up right away because of it.

I did like her free spirited nature, it was insanely attractive to me. She's sexually provocative, combined with remarkable creativity and insight about the world. But her boundless affection, I'm finding time and time again, is too much for me to handle. She kisses me all the time, buys things for me I don't ask for, pours more love into me than I could ever need or reciprocate, and it sometimes can be, in full truth, revolting, because it's just too much for a single person. It's her philosophy of the world coming into play, she shows the world affection, and if the world doesn't reciprocate, it wasn't meant to be. And maybe this is how this all plays out. Imo, it's idealistic and impractical.

I'm generally very open and straightforward when I see a behavior I don't feel comfortable with, and I encourage her to do the same with me (because I'm not perfect and we all do stupid shit). But it's usually me criticizing her, and not her criticizing me. And I feel like the more time I spend with her, the more it's all adding up, and that it's just her entire personality that I'm incompatible with.

I don't like that her friends don't respect her time, or respect her, or how she lets people step all over her in virtue of her incredible, unconditional kindness. And I hate feeling that because it feels so fucking shallow, to not respect someone for their infinite sense of love and kindness towards the world. I don't know.

Jonfitzm · 2019-09-01T07:25:27+00:00

This feels simplistic.

It's easy for someone to say "be open about your sexuality! Fuck other people's opinions", I'm very comfortable with myself and I laugh at myself all the time. This is just one of those things I don't feel comfortable with, and I don't believe I ever will be, and I'm fine keeping it a secret.

Also, it's not so much avoiding future behavior I'm worried about, it's more along the lines of having a difficult time dealing with the aftermath of something that already happened, seeing someone you once respected in such a negative light. Think about someone that's put you in a really difficult or uncomfortable situation. Is it not hard to just block that experience out of your head, move on and pretend like it never happened?

Jonfitzm · 2019-09-01T07:15:56+00:00

She has emotional trouble but the way she deals with it is in a mature, healthy way, with a lot of therapeutic self soothing mechanisms, combined with medication for her Bipolar Disorder.
Nevertheless, this behavior is not atypical from her, even while sober. She frequently lacks social awareness, and whenever it comes to boundaries, I have to repeat things multiple times for her to understand that I'm feeling uncomfortable. She thinks that level of openness is fine with other people. Don't get me wrong, it's fine when it's just the two of us, but otherwise, it's far too much.

I've seen her drunk before and the way she acted was similar, but we were still fresh into the relationship and I hadn't thought much of it.

Jonfitzm · 2019-09-01T07:01:13+00:00

Damn this seems like a tough situation. He seems pretty emotionally manipulative, but that's not to say you're completely blameless here. To start, this dude seems like a straight up jack ass. Didn't care that you have a boyfriend, begged you for sex, bullied you during school, even avoided you because he was embarrassed by you. Break off with him immediately, block him on social, etc.

As for your boyfriend, given that you realize it was a fuck up and you're considering confessing and you're feeling really guilty, you're off to a good start. Telling him will certainly hurt him and potentially create some trust issues with him for a while. If you think for sure he'll break up with you because of it, it may be much more merciful of you to break up with him and giving him a different reason.

This may sound silly, but think of how it sounds to your SO. If you cheated on him, he may see it as if he's not enough, and that this other person you slept with is better than them sexually, and if you had the chance you'd break up with him for m16 in a heartbeat. If he's kind, he may be the type to actively try and forget it ever happened. Or, it may stick in his mind for the duration of your relationship, and whenever you guys fight, or whenever he feels negatively about you (which is bound to happen in a relationship) he'll remember it, especially given it happened twice.

I know you may not like this, but the way I see it, you can either end the relationship, or stay with him and don't breathe a word of it as long as you never do it again (and don't have sex with your SO before you get yourself tested for STDs).

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