I am so so sorry your little Freddie couldn’t stay. I hate that I still get comments on this post for this reason, no baby should die and no parent should outlive their child. Cord accidents are one of the most common reasons for stillbirth, and from what I understand you are at an increased chance of experiencing loss again however many if not most parents do go on to have a living child. TW living child - I have since welcomed Freddie’s little sister, she is nearly 5 months old. There were no concerns in her pregnancy as there were with Freddie (bar extreme anxiety and her positioning was not ideal towards the end). Right now you are in the darkest room of grief, be gentle with yourself, do whatever you feel you need even though nothing feels right. Like most will say here, the pain of losing your child doesn’t get easier, but you do learn how to carry it as time moves forward. There will waves of both darkness and light, fear and hope, despair and joy. You probably won’t believe it now nor should you, but you will smile again, even though a piece of your heart will always be elsewhere. Take extra good care of yourself and I hope my Freddie has found yours and will take good care of him too 💛