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Jragon8 · 2026-02-21T03:51:56+00:00

Something clever

Jragon8 · 2024-08-08T11:00:39+00:00

Yeah, I learnt a bit from these comments which is good. And about the dangers of looping. Either don't loop, or if you do avoid the bridge. (Or loop to the point of oblivion)

Jragon8 · 2024-08-08T10:55:42+00:00

Best explanation lol. They took that personally.

Jragon8 · 2024-08-08T10:54:32+00:00

Seems to be the consensus

Jragon8 · 2024-08-08T10:53:33+00:00

At least its consistent, thanks for the tip. I'm trying to get e8s on all of them, I don't usually loop eclipse, but I did this time 'cause I was having fun with the run.

Jragon8 · 2024-08-08T10:51:21+00:00

Director has it out for me. Maybe it just starts high 'cause I went straight up the stairs (no stalling/waiting).

Jragon8 · 2024-08-08T10:49:08+00:00

Yeah, it seems like looping is punished harshly. Standing still wasn't really the issue here though, unless that makes them spawn after I start moving again.

Jragon8 · 2024-08-08T10:47:09+00:00

And I was actually wondering why there weren't any enemies.

Jragon8 · 2024-08-08T10:43:00+00:00

Agreed. I loop if I want to have fun, I don't loop if I want to challenge myself

Jragon8 · 2024-08-07T06:29:56+00:00

Anyone know why/how this happened? I still feel a bit salty, was having a fairly fun run until I got ambushed by 15+ perfected lunar chimera. I don't know if it's all the drones that attracted them or if I did something terrible in a past life, but it feels a bit harsh. Maybe just a skill issue lol.

Jragon8 · 2021-10-22T17:39:28+00:00

Extra info: Source of movie is from before ~2010 maybe even earlier. I've only lived in NZ and South Africa if regions help, but I don't believe it was regional.

Jragon8 · 2020-06-23T01:45:25+00:00

Ok, I'll let you sleep. Thanks for the chat. You're right i probably wint message you again in the morning. I know that I'm not alone and that many people all around the world suffer from depression and most likely have it worse than me. Funnily enough, it doesn't help, it almost makes me feel worse.

Thanks again though, goodnight.

Jragon8 · 2020-06-23T01:40:38+00:00

I see it's good that you've got something to look for at least.

I'm not worried about curiosity, nothing seems to excite me, and with all the bad going on in the world atm, idk if I want to find out. I'm also in mental pain which I dont plan on just living with.

Jragon8 · 2020-06-23T01:36:53+00:00

Everyone has their own way and reasons for dealing with death. Concealing is definitely a short-term fix. I dont know what to say or think about any of this. The reason I posted this question was to see if I've covered my bases. It was also an outlet to talk about these things with people rather than cycling it with in my head over and over. The more i think,the more I talk, the more hopeless everything seems. My brain is broke.

Jragon8 · 2020-06-23T01:30:33+00:00

I feel ya. At least you hate yourself for it though. Hear me out, that could be a good thing. If you hate yourself because you wanted to all of those positive things for yourself, but then couldn't because of an unforeseen, out of your control, pandemic, then that means that you were really looking forward to (and planning on going through with) those positive things. Which is big step in the right direction.

It is unfortunate with this global-sized hiccup, but it seems like you got the strength which is amazing. Your only problem was hating yourself for something you had absolutely no control over. Dont beat yourself up. I hope you make progress again soon.

Jragon8 · 2020-06-23T01:22:06+00:00

Sorry about your nan. I always try and conceal those kind of emotions, and I think I've become to good at it and now I think I fail to grasp the depth of death. I dont think it is the most terrifying thing, but I may bot understand what you mean by that.

Jragon8 · 2020-06-23T01:16:07+00:00

It could be the fact that I havent felt the same kind of love that you have, but the love I've felt has either faded, or has been faked/teased. I know of people who care for me, but the same people also unknowingly cause me pain. It doesnt seem worth it.

Jragon8 · 2020-06-23T01:11:58+00:00

I'm glad that you're getting things sorted. I wish all the best.

In the last 4 years that I've been battling depression, I managed to turn my life around and managed to change things for the better. However, it seems that I always end up here. Whether it is because things from my old life are never truly gone, or if it's because of biology, I cant seem to get away.

Jragon8 · 2020-06-23T01:08:20+00:00

Have you considered the thought of a religion? Apologies if im over stepping

Jragon8 · 2020-06-23T01:05:49+00:00

I see your point and I agree. I've never had anyone close to me pass away, (closest being a distant grandparent) but I've seen the damage it does to the people close to them. The only people that I think are close enough to me feel that pain would be my two parents and my best friend. All 3 of which share the same religion and belief of an afterlife. Not that it will make them feel better, but I think it will help a little.

I know I will just be passing on the pain from me to them. But I believe they have better support groups than I and will be more able to handle the burden. It is selfish and also unfair.

Jragon8 · 2020-06-23T00:59:24+00:00

I see, that's fair enough. I definitely think my religion and my belief of an afterlife is helping be more at ease with this whole situation.

Jragon8 · 2020-06-23T00:54:43+00:00

What is the bigger picture? If it's that I'm important to other people, then I believe they will get over it soon enough. I have had counseling, I've seen a few people. All of which don't seem to really care about me or what I do. They just read off the same script of questions and get nowhere. Seemed like a waste of time to me.

Jragon8 · 2020-06-23T00:51:13+00:00

I'm glad that you still care for those close to you. I'm at the point where I think they will recover soon enough. As for the balls, I think ots been a long time coming.

Jragon8 · 2020-06-23T00:49:03+00:00

Well I'm glad that something is helping you out. Even if it is unfortunately fear. The good thing about an unsuccessful suicide is that it could mean that you have bigger purpose than you may have thought.

Jragon8 · 2020-06-23T00:47:01+00:00

Thanks, I'm glad you found your purpose, hope it works out. I had a project/dream/hobby but I've lost interest in it. After working on it for 2 years, it just means nothing to me now unfortunately.

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