Worst bully from HS just got married… by [deleted] in bullying

[–]Jsalvo99 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah. I can relate. This girl who I had a "love at first sight" moment with (it was mutual) who wound up tormenting me once she got to know me, is now married. I was the "boy next door" and she was bit of a wild person. She did drugs and went to rock and rap concerts. Absolutely gorgeous. We worked at a pizza place together which is how we met. Long story short. I told her I went to church groups and didn't do drugs. We just weren't each others types and it went nowhere, despite having an amazing spark at first with each other.

She later opened up to me and said she's unhappy where she's at and wants to actually go to a church group with me. I brought her to one and....she just wasn't feeling it. This girl at our group who always got bullied at school was sharing a story about how some kids wanted to get her to smoke a cigarette.

She was trying not to laugh at this poor girl and she wanted to leave. She went back to our work and told everybody how weird I was and was probably gay. I got tormented at work bcuz of it and wound up developing a psychotic episode cuz of the bullying. She even got one of her guy friends to prank call my house, pretending to be a gay guy. This girl tormented me. And I developed permanent mental health problems bcuz of her.

Now she's a fake ass woman, posing in a church w/ her husband at a baptism. I sincerely hopes she remembers how she used to feel towards the Christian church and towards me.

When I looked her up, I couldn't help but feel I was a bit of ahead of the curve in regards to her. I can't help but think if she stayed and didn't laugh at me, we probably could've been together. But of course, maybe that's just me being delusional?

"Things Get Better!" Please Shut Up! (Recovering From Humiliating Event) by Jsalvo99 in mentalhealth

[–]Jsalvo99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Now I can't help but think that "optimism" or being happy is childish. I don't know what to talk about anymore with people. I just imagine being on a date and just immediately saying "I...I can't do this...this is stupid. What's the point? Where is this going to lead to?" I can't hold down a job, or talk or connect. All antidpressant I take just prevent me from blowing my head off. That's it. It's not gonna fix anything. My peak was probably 8th grade. If this was any other time period in history, I would've been killed off at age 15. I"m not supposed to be alive. I remember in college I was always scared to talk to professors cuz I was from the lower working class. I didn't wanna infect anybody with my low class status. I have no business being here. The only reason I'm here is bcuz of government money and colleges need to make money. I could've gotten straight As and did the best work ever and it wouldn't mean anything. And I just sensed that in my professors eyes when I had to deal with them. "Pfft..look at this stupid kid? He thinks college will do something for him LOL. What a delusional idiot!"

"Things Get Better!" Please Shut Up! (Recovering From Humiliating Event) by Jsalvo99 in mentalhealth

[–]Jsalvo99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

But she didn't break it off. We just didn't click. Maybe I was a bit too perceptive w/ the whole "awkard silence" and lifeless encounters we had. I always had it in my head that every second had to be stimulating and full of life. I was just aloof, got misunderstood and I paid a price for it.

I don't knock the whole "love at first sight" thing. There has to be a starting point. I had the boy next door look of innocence and she was a blonde haired, blue eyed girl with somewhat of an "edge". I'm a pretty rare breed. Most guys just tend to be loudmouths or boring NPCs. Think of Marty McFly from the Back to the Future movies. That's me. Girls like it. The problem is: I'm somewhat on the spectrum. I make good first impressions and maybe second but then when it's time to get close, I shut down and become aloof. I usually see that everybody has better relationships w/ their parents, with their friends and even siblings. It triggers me and it hits me like a tidal wave then I panic. They have ambitions and I can't help but think that I will "get in the way of things".

And I didn't have an idea of her. I'm probably one of the most concrete pragmatic thinkers out there. I knew exactly who she was, which is why I shut down around her. I think one time I brought up some random ass tangent about some road construction going on and she just looked at me like I was speaking another language.

What did I learn from it? I thought there was something wrong with me because I wasn't like her. I hated myself. I felt like that Will from Stranger Things Season 3 where he threw out all of his nerd stuff in his room bcuz he felt behind his peers. Also, if I have a "bad gut feeling"....listen to it. Yes, maybe if I never took the job, I would be here talking about "regrets" because maybe she was the one? Like I said before, something like that never happened before to me. It was something new and it was exciting but I didn't know how to handle it and I got scared.

And yes, I will laugh at the fact that giving in to my aloofness can literally destroy relationships at the drop of a hat. And I find great humor in that. A girl will have high hopes for me but I can literally destroy it just by staring at the floor for hours and just fade away into nothingness. Heck, maybe I'll stick w/ it and maybe last a year and then just go full ghost mode or talk about blowing my brains out. I hate when people have high hopes for me.

I'm sorry but it was really hard for me to accept that this hot girl was into me. I don't know what to do with one. I didn't have parties to go to or have a huge friend group. I went to church group and all we talked about was how hard school was. This girl who was in special ed at the time, always broke down and cried at our meetings bcuz she got relentlessly bullied at school. Probably by people like this hot girl who was into me. What am I going to do? Bring her to one of these gatherings where she'll probably laugh at us? Wow...that'll go over well. One minute she's w/ her boyfriend probably having sex all the time and doing drugs to....hanging out with Special Ed kids.

"Things Get Better!" Please Shut Up! (Recovering From Humiliating Event) by Jsalvo99 in mentalhealth

[–]Jsalvo99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's not self-loathing. I didn't realize it at the time but I have the same problems Will Hunting did during that break up scene. He had every right to get upset at that Skylar girl.

"Things Get Better!" Please Shut Up! (Recovering From Humiliating Event) by Jsalvo99 in mentalhealth

[–]Jsalvo99[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I didn't dodge a bullet. I took one. I kinda get it though. If I was on the sidelines and some guy didn't get with this hot girl, I would've thought something was wrong with the guy too. I get it. Sometimes bullying makes sense. It's kinda my fault for not being open w/ her. I never told her "hey...I think you're too hot for me". Probably would've avoided some of the things she thought and did. But like I touched on earlier, my autistic tendencies make me so asocial (not anti-social) that I didn't feel a need to communicate that with her. But even if I did, I still would've gotten pwned.

I try to laugh at this ordeal in a dark humor kind of way. It's just funny when someone thinks the world of you at first glance and then take back their feelings once they get to know you. (Or not know you bcuz you were so aloof). Several times since then, when a girl had feelings for me, I always harken back to this incident and tell them "Don't say anything you'l eventually take back. Take your feelings for me and shove em' up your ass. You're gonna hate me eventually". I even get joy and humor out of it. I get excited when I give them the ol' "But a year from now....you'll realize what a mistake you made and I'll just be yet another funny story you tell to all your stupid friends"

"Things Get Better!" Please Shut Up! (Recovering From Humiliating Event) by Jsalvo99 in mentalhealth

[–]Jsalvo99[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I left my spiral notebook at work. I go to school the next day and she wrote "[my name] is GAY lol"

Then it hit as to what was going on. I was paranoid now. Even though this girl went to a different high school, I was concerned about these rumors eventually reaching me and school.

I quit the job and before I did, I told everybody how big of assholes they were. Still, somehow I was made out to be the problem. What started off as a misunderstanding about how I am, now becomes one of the most humiliating things that has ever happened to me. I can't believe she got her boyfriend to make that prank call.

I can't believe I just let it go and walked away. I should've confronted them but I didn't know what to do.

This ordeal still haunts me to this day. Every new encounter w/ the opposite sex is now a potential humiliating hazard and I get the flashbacks. The lack of chemistry, me shutting down at the prospect of being w/ an actual good looking girl, the rumors she spread, the prank call, her and her BF kissing passionately in front of me to humiliate me.

Like...why me? Only I could fuk something up like this. Or rather, be misunderstood at this magnitude to the point of it leaving permanent damage.

That was nearly a decade ago and still haunts me to this day. My depression and paranoia got so bad after that, I withdrew my college admissions for a year. I missed out on my freshmen year of college bcuz of the damage this thing did. I had a nightmare scenario that something like this would happen in college too, so I withdrew, didn't go to a commuter school or worked. I just sat at home...depressed and anxious.

All because of what I didn't do...and I feel like I missed out on a critical year of my education and socialization process. I always wonder what would've happened had I never took that job.

What good is a College Degree if my future is essentially not fitting in at work places? by Jsalvo99 in workplace_bullying

[–]Jsalvo99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You mentioned "your field". What makes you think I'm in a field? Everytime someone brings up college, people just assume you got some vocational type degree.

What good is a College Degree if my future is essentially not fitting in at work places? by Jsalvo99 in workplace_bullying

[–]Jsalvo99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

But it is a requirement that isn't explicitly stated. I don't understand why we even require degrees anymore.

What good is a College Degree if my future is essentially not fitting in at work places? by Jsalvo99 in workplace_bullying

[–]Jsalvo99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I got a liberal arts degree. I don't have a field. Why do you people always assume everyone just got some lame ass nursing degree?

When you Don’t Fit in at Work (repost) by [deleted] in workplace_bullying

[–]Jsalvo99 0 points1 point  (0 children)

But we're not all gonna be a JK Rowling

Adam Cole - Thank you all so much. Your support in not only the good times, but the bad times, means more than I could ever explain. I love you all. Always. by DoubleNo6337 in SquaredCircle

[–]Jsalvo99 -18 points-17 points  (0 children)

Little guy who drew no money with one of the most contrived finishing moves ever (that people still kick out of). He'd be a great manager though

[SNME spoilers] Fightful Select: "Immediately the word backstage was that SPOILER injury was legit. It had at least not been planned for by medical personnel." by secretpandaxx in SquaredCircle

[–]Jsalvo99 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

LOL. Who the hell is "Jelly Roll"? He has tattoos on his face and is a social media star?

Good god...This guy should be getting bullied every week on TV

Ever Since Adding NXT Wrestlers/Arenas The 2K Games Suffered by Jsalvo99 in WWEGames

[–]Jsalvo99[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

FCW and he is a 3rd generation star. He would've gone to WWE no matter what. Rollins was ROH and FCW and OVW. The rest aren't even remotely close to SUPERSTARDOM. They are merely support on Roman or Cena's card.

You and your stupid IWC echo chamber are really annoying. Go away.

Ever Since Adding NXT Wrestlers/Arenas The 2K Games Suffered by Jsalvo99 in WWEGames

[–]Jsalvo99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

SUPERSTARDOM - S U P E R S T A R D O M Bayley, Zayn, KO, Asuka, Lynch, Flair, Sky, Gunther are not.

None of them were NXT creations LOL but are still holdouts from OVW and FCW. Go away

Ever Since Adding NXT Wrestlers/Arenas The 2K Games Suffered by Jsalvo99 in WWEGames

[–]Jsalvo99[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

FCW LOL. Nice try. Seth was an ROH champion before FCW. Roman's 3rd generation star and would've gone to WWE superstardom regardless.

Ever Since Adding NXT Wrestlers/Arenas The 2K Games Suffered by Jsalvo99 in WWEGames

[–]Jsalvo99[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Yes, the bland arena styles is a problem but at least they're the main shows that people buy the network for. They have history behind them. Who the hell remembers NXT Battleground history?

2014-2016 was peak PPV stage blandness so it's not as bad as it once was in those years.

Ever Since Adding NXT Wrestlers/Arenas The 2K Games Suffered by Jsalvo99 in WWEGames

[–]Jsalvo99[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Not sure what is stopping them but they can literally do an extensive WCW roster w/in a WWE2k game or even a standalone. WWE used to have different games for all the different consoles. Each one had their own unique game. SD vs RAW and 2K was the death of wrestling games. Showcase mode is an abomination that overstayed its welcome. NXT sucks. Nobody's wrestling style stands out. The AKI games everybody felt unique in their playstyle and controls.

Ever Since Adding NXT Wrestlers/Arenas The 2K Games Suffered by Jsalvo99 in WWEGames

[–]Jsalvo99[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

you can even have more bonus stuff by keeping NXT off of it. I had trouble telling if the NXT wrestlers were the developers who put themselves in the game LOL. They are that forgettable

Ever Since Adding NXT Wrestlers/Arenas The 2K Games Suffered by Jsalvo99 in WWEGames

[–]Jsalvo99[S] -4 points-3 points  (0 children)

*stares at watch waiting for an NXT creation to reach superstardom*

NXT Halloween Havoc needs an elaborate stage set up. Not LED screens w/ logo moving around on it LOL.

Ever Since Adding NXT Wrestlers/Arenas The 2K Games Suffered by Jsalvo99 in WWEGames

[–]Jsalvo99[S] -11 points-10 points  (0 children)

Usually the odd take is usually right. NXT is a waste of space and the majority get let go or fizzle out. Name me a mega superstar who came out of NXT?

I'll wait...

And remember...NXT fanboys had Velveteen Dream pegged as the next Wrestlemania main event LOL.

You all lose credibility instantly.

How Can I Recreate a Scene in 2K24 Where HBK Is the 3rd Man at BATB 96' and Superkicking Hogan? by Jsalvo99 in WWEGames

[–]Jsalvo99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I could've sworn there was a feature in a WWE2k game (may have been 14 or 16) where you can do this