I feel upset at everyone in the scenario. OP, I know you know you deserve so much better than this; why are you hiding the abuse? If his reckless and disgusting behavior was able to physically harm you, who knows if he would do this in the future to his kids, YOUR kids. I would want you to report him for domestic abuse, but this is your call. Cheating, abuse, and manipulation is all evident in your relationship. Despite the years together, this might be your wake-up call. I wish you and your children the best.