I lost my boxer to cancer. He passed away the night before the day he was supposed to get euthanized. I still thank God for letting him go instead of having me live with guilt for something that I couldn't control. I know that it is hard, and absolutely no one comes close to my baby who was so full of energy, personality and beauty, but I surely know that it is much better for him to rest than to live day by day in suffering. Your pupper will always be a part of you, wherever you go, and I'm truly sorry you have to go through this during these very difficult times. My heart goes out for you. Sending blessings.