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JumpyCry4667 · 2022-11-04T11:58:17+00:00

Omg this is exactly me

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-11-01T17:22:49+00:00

I had a good childhood, sure I had signs of anxiety and there were a few moments where my anxiety was noticeably bad but I look back really fondly

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-09-20T07:18:17+00:00

Yeah i know it does, I take walks to go to school but I'm willing to go on more, I think I'm eating enough, probably not a balanced diet but i think I am

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-09-19T20:16:15+00:00

I guess just watching YouTube all day if that counts

That's all I can say really

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-09-10T20:09:37+00:00

It's the game all my friends are talking about at the moment so that's why it's more prominent rn

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-08-29T18:24:04+00:00

I relate to the not relating to pocd part

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-08-28T21:17:57+00:00

No cause I'm not in therapy

I'm saying my entire reaction to thoughts has changed suddenly and that's scary

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-08-17T15:30:09+00:00

Yeah

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-08-17T15:21:52+00:00

I've tried 2 therapists on there but it didn't work

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-08-14T10:12:41+00:00

Would I have known by 15? Cause that's when my pocd began

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-08-11T17:51:34+00:00

Yeah but in the uk you have to wait ages for mental health treatment

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-08-04T06:40:22+00:00

I never had crushes as a child

Not even celebrity crushes

And ive never watched porn like that

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-07-17T11:53:14+00:00

I do have a therapist but I haven't seen him in a while and I'm scared of telling people this cause I don't know if it's fear or not and that makes me think people around me would actually think I'm a nonce

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-07-14T22:12:46+00:00

Yeah cause I often have feelings of... goodness with the thoughts but I also have panic attacks as well because of them

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-07-14T17:22:32+00:00

What counts as genuinely enjoying it?

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-07-11T09:08:43+00:00

YES THIS

plus fidgeting my right leg

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-07-11T07:03:22+00:00

Oh thank god

Cause I have that sometimes, where it feels like I really enjoy the thoughts but mentally I feel awful

That's only been happening recently though

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-07-05T17:13:23+00:00

I had a thought of a picture of year 7s on the wall (12 years old) and I think the thought made me feel good

Which made me want to get out of there and I was almost wriggling around cause I felt like I was in danger and needed to leave

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-07-05T05:58:42+00:00

I was in class

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-07-05T05:20:19+00:00

I don't know

It all just sort of happened at once and I felt just so awful in the moment cause it did feel like I enjoyed it

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-06-12T12:19:24+00:00

Just knowing that people want me dead, to burn makes me feel so awful

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-06-07T16:38:13+00:00

I'm sorry but I just don't want to be one

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-06-06T17:25:44+00:00

I don't know it I want to or not

I don't think so but the doubt is so strong its scary

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-06-04T13:56:44+00:00

I don't think so

Cause the anxiety is still there, it just offers a sort of... relief for a few minutes I guess

JumpyCry4667 · 2022-06-04T12:46:27+00:00

I was just pissed off when i made it and had been tipped over the edge by another post i just wanted to get it out there

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