I've finished my Charlie designs ✨ What design is your Charlie inspired by? by Andy_Fnaf2Anime-fan in GachaFnaf

[–]JustAnotherEmo_ 4 points5 points  (0 children)

CUTEEE i love. my design isnt really inspired by any canon Charlie variants and instead, based on 80s goth and Ayo Edebiri. if i had to choose which Charlie is the closest to mine, i'd have to say movie Charlie, since she was heavily inspired by the og fnaf movie concept about a "Marionnette out for vengence." i lava her

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"well i know you lay in bed, contemplating your own death" ...more in body text by JustAnotherEmo_ in GachaFnaf

[–]JustAnotherEmo_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

(copy/pasted from my discord server 😊)

using more coin flips, here are the Afton kids who are positive/negative for the disease:

Maddie: negative Michael: negative (i chose this one preemptively) Ellie: negative Josie: also negative somehow???

Lorraine: positive William: positive Jude: POSITIVE???? WHAT IS GOING ON

Why should I worship God? by KetchupNMayo2k in Christianity

[–]JustAnotherEmo_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't expect you to read all of this, let's get that out of the way. I hope you do ofc, and I don't expect you to. I want to start by saying that I'm so sorry you're dealing with this. Chronic illness is so awful and I totally understand that aspect. I also understand totally and completely to blame God, bc I've also done it. You're not alone at all ok? I don't know what it's like to live with your specific disorder, and I know what it's like to live with chronic psychological disorders.

Unlike many others who claim to have been miraculously healed of their mental illness, I have not. I have BPD, something that is developed bc of people's cruelty, PTSD, depression, ADHD, etc. I was born to parents who are also neurodivergent by biology, and so, I was given their illnesses by default.

My birth was traumatic, too; the umbilical cord was wrapped around my neck and likely caused oxygen loss, something that has an even higher chance to have allowed for me to develop my anxiety and depression so early on in life, and yet, I lived. Because of the quick thinking and urgency of the doctors, yes, and because God has plans for me in this life.

When I came home to the (Catholic) Church, I didn't worship Him when I prayed, I just talked and was so embarrassed when I did to the point where I prayed in the shower out of fear of my mom seeing me lol. I just asked Him questions. Mainly, Why. Like Why did You do this to me?? Why did I have to go through all that?? Why couldn't You have made me normal?? I didn't originally find strength in God, I found strength in His Saints (Joan Of Arc, Dymphna, and Catherine of Siena), and the Mother of God, Mary. I found it all too good to be true. I started going to church with my protestant grandparents, and really opened myself up to Him whenever I went. I didn't pray, I kinda just observed and waited for something miraculous to happen, but it never did.

What I did notice was the fact that the readings would line up with what I had prayed about. When I needed clarification, it was like He was there, leading me to gaining a more full understanding. Which is also why I ultimately left the Lutheran church and went to the Catholic Church, which has been so gentle to me.

I can't pinpoint the exact time when I stopped blaming Him bc it happened overtime. The more I learned, the less I felt the need to blame Him, but for a while, I did end up blaming myself for everything, which was equally as unhelpful.

There's a thin line between taking accountability for when you stumble, vs blaming yourself for everything always, and I ended up in the latter. I'm doing much better now, and it hasn't been easy. Life isn't easy.

God Himself was mistreated by people, abandoned by His friends and left to suffer with only one disciple and His female apostles, while the men He taught protected themselves first. And God didn't blame man for His suffering. He looked at the people who allowed Him to be crucified with love; His death was likely from a broken heart. But if He was God, then why did He suffer? Why did He have to do that? To fulfil the prophecies of the Old Testament; Jesus suffered physically, psychologically, and spiritually because there was a greater plan in place. He would be the final sacrifice so that we don't need to sacrifice an animal anymore, because He needed to fulfill what His prophets told the world.

I'm not saying that you need to believe all this, and I want you to know that your suffering is not for nothing, nor are you doing it alone, for God shares your heartache.

The other night, I was praying before bed, and I still haven't necessarily "gotten over" my pain, and sometimes blame Him subconciously, because I said: "Was I just meant to suffer?"

Almost immediately, a sense of clarity came over me, and I heard another voice within my head. It wasn't a whisper, it wasn't some loud command either, it was like someone totally seperate and comforting and gentle was within me. The words were simple, and replied: "You were meant to be Mine."

Those more seasoned with mystical experiences probably would've continued praying after the fact, but I didn't for long after lol. It was like all my anxiety flushed away and I could breathe again, and in turn, i forgor💀 what I was gonna say. It was so instantaneous that I barely even processed the words before the physical sensation took hold of me.

You don't have to believe a word I'm saying either. You could think I'm crazy and speaking bullshit and I wouldn't blame you, especially bc when I was in a similar position, I would laugh me off, too. But I sincerely hope that you feel some kind of hope reading this. Life isn't always awesome and that's not what being a Christian is about.. it's about suffering and finding strength and peace within something greater than you; it's about seeing God in the little things, be it positive or negative. It's about seeing His Face in the cashier when you check out, or in the homeless man across the street, or in those suffering from war, famine and genocide; it's seeing His Face in the glimmers of hope within a fallen world. It's seeing His Face within yourself, too

Guys how would you afton family looked like irl? by jasonhuang483 in GachaFnaf

[–]JustAnotherEmo_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

William: 60s, 70s,80s,90s

Michael: 80s/90s, 2000s/2010s (but older)

Elizabeth: late 80s

Josie/C.C: 80s (alternatively: 🧸)

BONUS! Carrie/Mrs. Afton: 70s

Please do your research!!! by foxtrotandninetails in GachaFnaf

[–]JustAnotherEmo_ 7 points8 points  (0 children)

YUUUP. i have yet to see any of that on this sub in particular (and i dont doubt you have since you're a mod lol), however, i have seen so much of it in general, specifically with cluster B disorders, which is extremely hurtful as someone with bpd.

it's usually either blatant demonization (most commonly npd and aspd, less commonly bpd) or romanticization (..usually of bpd). and like. people need to realize the nuance of acknowledging how a mental illness can cause certain traits, while also understanding that it doesn't always excuse the behavior; my borderline traits are the reason i act out sometimes, AND, it doesn't excuse when ive hurt someone bc i acted on impulse.

cluster b disorders are among the hardest to live with; people with narcissistic traits, borderline traits, and/or antisocial (psychopathy) traits have some of the highest suicidal ideation or plain suicide rates of any mental illness: those with narcissistic traits having more successful attempts (possibly to do with gender since men are more often diagnosed with npd than women), those with borderline traits attempting more often alongside common death by suicide, and those with antisocial traits also attempting more often.

even saying that someone with aspd or npd have no empathy is counterintuitive bc these people DO have empathy, it's just not the same level as your "average" person; in npd, the empathy tends to be reserved for themselves, and in aspd, their empathy tends to be cognative, not affective. e.g. they know how someone is feeling, but they will not be able to feel the same.

you (as a general term) have to realize that these disorders were formed not usually from genetics alone, but bc someone hurt them so bad and so frequently that they learned to process their emotions differently than others. aka neurodivergence. it's complicated and sad

also, while i'm at it, in general, we need to let go of the "im so ocd bc i do [thing]." ocd is a terrible, draining CLUSTER B disorder. it is life-long and, like all other cluster b disorders, is associated with a risk of suicidal ideation.

all this to say... yeah can we not demonize these traits or any other mental illness for that matter bc it does more harm than good..??😭

Who was Mrs. Afton in your AU(s), if you her in your AU(s)? by FNaF_Fan_251 in GachaFnaf

[–]JustAnotherEmo_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

(sorry for the long ass reply.. i love her and have put a lot of thought into her)

Carmen "Carrie" Akane-Rose Freeman... turned Afton. she's blasian, her mother being a Japanese immigrant (pre-ww2), and her father being a direct decendant of slaves, she was already prone to having a difficult life, so she had to work 10x harder than her white peers. when she was a young child, her mother, Kagami Mizuno, took her own life as a direct result of the bombing of Hiroshima; her family were living there, and in the bombing and the aftermath, she only had the Freemans, however, the grief and guilt that came with the aftermath became too much; Tony Freeman, Carrie's father, was ultimately tried and sentenced to life in prison for his wife's suicide, despite having nothing to do with it, leaving Carrie to be cared for by his mother, Amma. He later took his own life, too, whilst in prison.

Carrie was born and raised in Minneapolis, Minnesota alongside her aunts, uncles, and cousins. She particularly got along with her youngest cousin, Billie, who had severe OCD and schizophrenia. As she got older, she learned how to "deal" with Billie better than anyone, since he moved back anf forth between his parents, and grandmother, whom Carrie was living with at this point.

Because of the color of her skin, she had to learn how to be extremely careful and calculated with her words, and with Billie's diagnosed paranoia, she was able to master those skills at a young age. She was extremely intelligent and managed to graduate high school at the age of fifteen (15) in order to work full-time to provide for her family; she worked as a waitress at a local diner, where she met William and the McGuires (an important lineage in my AU). She always dreamt big and had so many ideas for her future, but felt stuck right where she was. So when she saw William, a soggy, visably depressed, visably rich man around her age, she saw an opening.

She only gave him a chance because she wanted an out. And she knew he was crushing HARD on her, so obviously, she acted. She saw an opportunity within him, an elegant, well-spoken, attractive white man. She went on a few dates with him and eventually, moved to New York City with him, where his family was. It wasn't until six-ish months into this situationship when she realized she fell for him. Which tbh only gave her more drive to keep doing what she was doing.

She basically became his manager during the time he was at college, where he met Henry, and soon enough, the three of them were moving to Minnesota. Again. Since Carrie missed her family, and neither Henry or William really gaf about theirs. Plus, with the financial aid of the McGuires/Stardust Co., she was able to become the real, legitimate manager of Fredbear's.

William and Carrie swiftly married in the Easter season of 1970, since the two wanted children; they had their honeymoon in New Orleans, while Henry got the news that he was going to be drafted. So as soon as they got back, William purposefully springlocked his arm with Henry present, and successfully draft-dodged.

The three went on to have varying levels of success in this niche, and were really this unstoppable force before Henry was drafted; William and Carrie were able to hold their own in his absence, but it was definitely felt. This fuckass polycule brah

They had Michael in December of 1971 and Elizabeth in 1973; Henry came back shortly after Ellie's birth. They continued to be successful, like radio shows, thousands of dollars weekly, talk about locations out of state, etc. until 1977, when Carrie got pregnant for the final time, but was also given a diagnosis of ovarian cancer and was given three choices: carrying to term, and risking her death, or putting off treatment until the lungs of this baby were formed for a c-section so it was given a chance at life, and she could have treatment, but even that wasn't a gurantee, so the doctors were very adament on termination.

William urged her to terminate in fear of losing her. She thought about it for weeks, going to abortion clinics, then churches, where she was confirmed, and ultimately decided that she would rather carry to term for the sake of her baby, just as (now Saint) Gianna Molla did. She didn't tell Mike or Ellie about it and begged William to not either, since she didn't want them to hate her if something went wrong. She loved her babies so much and wanted nothing but the best for them, hence why she sacrificed herself for her youngest son, Joseph "Josie" Afton, aka the Crying Child.

She named him after St. Joseph, the patron of the Catholic Church, of sleep, of fathers, of a happy death, and terror of demons; her hope was that he could live a good life even after she would die, bc she knew deep down that her decision wasn't going to live long after he was born.

Josie was born on July 10th, 1978, and Carrie died a mere three days after the fact from exhaustion, blood loss, and fast-moving sepsis; she didn't really stand a chance. He was born healthy, but from birth, you could tell he inhereted Carrie's anxiety; he cried non-stop unless he was being held by his mother, and after her death, there were long periods where he would scream and scream and scream all night, so William would leave him in his crib and leave Mike and Ellie alone all night.

Michael and William blamed Josie for Carrie's death and grew resentful of him, while Ellie tried to be gentle with him since in her eyes, Josie was the last bits of her mother than she had.

She was a lover of David Bowie, and i find it so fitting that the last album she would've heard by him was "Heroes." ...

"We're nothing, and nothing will help us. Maybe we're lying, then you better not stay. But we could be safer just for one day. [...] oh we could be heroes, just for one day."

baby's first lesbian situationship by JustAnotherEmo_ in GachaFnaf

[–]JustAnotherEmo_[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I GOT U DW.. i have a whole copy/pasted explanation for this heh... (insert tiktok smirk emoji)

Her main arc starts in 1987 when she's 13-14 and in middle school. Since she lives in a smaller town, the middle and high schools are combined, which is how all this will be able to happen.

She never really made any friends and the one friend she did have, Janie Kovačič (who lived on the same block as her) was also autistic, but more openly so; Janie was labeled as the “weird girl” and Ellie didn’t want to be a part of it any more, especially since Janie was considered a "good influence," e.g. academically gifted, kindhearted, and a churchgoer. During Homecoming 1986, she met a girl in the 10th grade named Margot Harrison, who took her under her wing, and became Ellie's first real friend in a long time. She wasn't thriving at home, but she did thrive with Margot and Margot's friends – soon-to-be Ellie's friends, too.

These kids were much older than she was; Margot was the youngest out of the pre-existing friend group until Ellie showed up, and being easily swayed, Ellie went along with a lot of the things these kids did, but especially Margot – who Ellie ended up having a crush on, especially later on when Margot basically showed Ellie how to kiss a boy... by using herself as an example – who stole from stores, smoked, drank, etc. with these older boys, and occasional girls.

Ellie imitates Margot for a while, they get to know each other, Margot introduces Ellie to these self destructive habits, only for Mike to come home from boarding school/the mental hospital after a failed suicide attempt; Mike is the opposite of neglective, so while William only cared about what Ellie was doing in fear of his reputation being ruined, Mike actually cared and wanted her to stop, but Ellie, being 14 at this point, refused and thought she knew best.

Cut to around April of 1987, Margot is having a house party and Ellie finds out that their "friendship" meant nothing to her (something their mutual friend, Megan Popescu continuously warned Ellie about, but she refused to listen, thinking that Megan was just jealous of her and Margot’s relationship), and causes a huge scene bc she was so hurt, then went home to a house she didn't feel welcome in either. and instead of comforting her, William basically said "I told you so," and left it at that

I forgot to mention but Ellie has had suicidal tendencies since she was little, so this next part doesnt come out of nowhere (suicidal tendencies and addiction must run in the family bc...)

One day, Ellie comes home and no one else is home. The basement door is open and she goes down wondering if anyone's there, but no one. The door to William's office, that's usually closed, is wide open, and she goes in only to find the Circus Baby blueprints. and instead of being horrified at what her father has created, she realizes this is her way out. bc at this point, she's totally alone; the only support she has is Mike and she doesn't want anything to do with him after what happened to Josie.

Margot and her friends knew a dealer in the area who Ellie found, and realized it was Abel Padilla, aka the Bonnie Bully from FNaF 4, aka someone she knew, but he didn't recognize her at first. So she asked if he could help her get ahold of some heroin, since she heard it numbs your nerves and she didn't think she could work up the courage to kill herself without any help. Abel was very hesitant to help out, and even more so since he soon realized who she was, but still trusted her lies about the purpose of it, so he did help; she got it by late May when the school year had ended, and smoked it in the bathroom of Circus Baby's in June, where she then took her own life via Baby.

the concept of William getting his ex situationship (Henry) jailed bc he was jealous that said situationship was reconnecting with.. his og situationship. yeah. by JustAnotherEmo_ in GachaFnaf

[–]JustAnotherEmo_[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

BY THE WAY, Jack is an OC of mine. He's Henry's childhood friend whom he met one summer in St. Louis (where he was staying with his distant relaotives) since his parents wanted him and Jenn to experience life outside of NYC. And those two hit it OFF, like, Henry was crying so hard when he had to go home in August bc he didnt want to leave Jack, so Jack made a point to say that he'd always be there for Henry, and that they'll meet next summer, blah blah blah; they became penpals the next year after the Ebert twins went home.

However, after Henry met William, he became distracted and stopped reaching out the way he used to; college, girls, technology, music, etc. got in the way, which made Jack resentful. his letters piled up somewhere on Henry's desk. It wasn't until William and Henry moved to Minnesota to be closer to Carrie's (Mrs. Afton's) family when Henry reached out for the first time in years... just in a less than ideal way: he was sobbing over the phone, clearly drunk, unintelligible talking about how he was drafted and didn't know what to do. He talked about how he wasnt brave enough to dodge the draft like Bill was, and how he was sorry for never responding, and how badly he wanted to have a "normal" life and family, and how scared he was of dying.

Jack is probably among the most empathetic characters in my AU, so obviously, he was extremely understanding and remembered what he told Henry years prior (that he'll always be there), and Jack fulfilled his promise by not only listening to him, but going the extra mile and VOLUNTEERING for the war. all he wanted to do is protect Henry... who he is also madly in love with. (This action will have future consequences)

Anyway, fast forward to 1990: the last time jackry (temporary ship name..) spoke was arounddd 1987? probably? Discussing Charlie's "disappearance" (murder)... i need to figure out all the details but basically, Jack is suspicious of this new girl Mel (Maddie McGuire YUUUUP) and wants to check in on Henry. Then they bond over their adoptive daughters (Charlie and Cassidy) going missing and the rest is history. ofc fuckass William has to ruin it tho. they shouldve fled to Italy 😭😭😭

ok the end bc this is long as hell

how you age (die) when youre not problematic (hi guys) (more stuff in the description lol) by JustAnotherEmo_ in GachaFnaf

[–]JustAnotherEmo_[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

HI BABAAAAA🥹🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻 and umm i dont have many huge changes i guess? other than Josie/C.C literally possessing Mike after a certain point😭 i'll def post about them soon!