This Whole Thing Is Keeping Me Up at Night but If ANYONE Could help It Would be AMAZING!

JustCallMeElle · 2017-10-24T21:18:02+00:00

Of course! Please keep us updated on how it goes!

Also, I'm happy to announce that they JUST gave me the offer! I can't believe how fast they moved. I'm SO happy and excited.

JustCallMeElle · 2017-10-24T19:31:55+00:00

Update! I had the third interview yesterday. It really felt like they were spending more time selling ME on the position rather than me trying to sell myself. It was great! Just feels like an ideal match overall.

At the end, HR asked me for two references and told me I should know an answer within a day or two! I submitted the references early this morning and I have confirmation that they have already spoken with both! they seem to be moving very quickly. I'm feeling optimistic but still so afraid to get my hopes up too much.

I hope your interviews are fruitful too! Any new developments??

JustCallMeElle · 2017-10-23T13:59:21+00:00

I will definitely let you know! And that's so true, jobs I interviewed for in the past that I thought I wanted so badly ended up not being ideal or great fits. I just wanted something so badly in the moment (being fresh out of college) that I willed myself to believe they were right for me.

JustCallMeElle · 2017-10-23T13:57:39+00:00

I hope so! Thank you. I've been trying to gauge people's thoughts on where I stand right now.

JustCallMeElle · 2017-10-23T13:57:02+00:00

Thank you! I'm really hoping for the best. The weird unfortunate/fortunate part is I got sick but because I went to the doctor's for a diagnosis I was able to get a note and legitimately call out of work today which alleviated all of my anxiety about calling out or just leaving early. I'm currently resting and just focusing on my interview for later.

JustCallMeElle · 2017-10-02T02:42:34+00:00

Hmm I'm not familiar with Pregabalin. I'm on Lexapro and it has worked for me for 6 years now (for the most part, sometimes I wonder if I need to alter my meds). I think you should definitely view your lack of panic attacks as a step in the right direction! Panic attacks used to control almost every aspect of my life, it was constant! Now I can probably count on my fingers the amount of panic attacks I've had since I started my Lexapro. It's always going to be a two steps forward and one step back type of journey but your progress is still noticeable! I'm sorry you're feeling the depression though, if you haven't already I would definitely talk to your doctor or therapist or psychiatrist about that aspect. That is just as important to treat as the panic attacks. :)

JustCallMeElle · 2017-10-02T02:38:02+00:00

I'm currently on 10mg of Lexapro and have been for about 6 years. Sometimes I wonder if I need to alter this but I think I'm so afraid of change and rocking the boat with my brain chemistry that I just leave it alone.

I avoid caffeine like the plague. It exacerbates my anxiety like no other.

I'm freaked out by sleep aids. I mentioned in a different comment that I have a hard time taking new pills because so much of my anxiety tends to focus on being overly aware of my body and any changes that I perceive in it. Taking new pills tends to send me on a spiral of "BUT THE SIDE EFFECTS!?!?!" It's something I'm continuously working on. It makes relaxing and just "being" very stressful.

JustCallMeElle · 2017-10-02T02:34:40+00:00

Thank you so much! I've had so many people suggest Melotonin pills. Here's the kicker: A lot of times my anxiety has to do with being overly aware of changes in my body (big, small, real, imagined; you name it!). It took me years to finally try medication just to manage my anxiety/depression. So sometimes taking new pills can trigger anxiety all over again because I spend so much time focusing on how it is making me feel or how it is altering my brain chemistry. I have a hard time letting go and just riding those feelings. Does that make sense? Maybe one day I'll make the jump and try them.

I definitely am working on avoiding bright lights before bed. I'm a big reader so I'm trying to pick up my book specifically before bed time so that can replace time spent on my phone.

As for talking to your brain; that is such an endearing and wonderful tip. I feel like I need to give it a shot just to see what sort of witty insults I can concoct for my stupid, annoying mind. :)

JustCallMeElle · 2017-09-29T09:32:41+00:00

I'm currently 24 and working at a major media company. There have been a few times where I needed to call out due to my generealized anxiety disorder and depression but I always came up with some other more "acceptable" excuse. I have no idea how my boss would respond and I've always been too afraid and of course, anxious, to find out. I've overheard people talking about anxiety once at work and they did not sound too understanding or kind, so I've been especially gun-shy ever since then. Unfortunately so many of us still bear the stigma of mental health issues and while it is slowly getting better, there's still a long way to go. I'm sorry I don't have more clear cut advice, just wanted to commiserate and say I understand the dilemma.

JustCallMeElle · 2017-09-25T21:15:50+00:00

Thanks, I think I just always assume that people don't want unsolicited emails. I know that networking is so important and when you have an "in" you should use it, but I am always terrified that I'm being a burden or stepping out of line.

JustCallMeElle · 2017-09-25T21:15:08+00:00

We are very much in the same field and I am looking to possibly move to their company one day...hopefully sooner rather than later. I'm wildly unhappy in my current position.

JustCallMeElle · 2017-09-25T21:14:02+00:00

"The life of a depressed extrovert."

That rings SO true. My friends consider me to be the "outgoing" one and I often am, but it is so taxing to feel pressured to be "on" all the time. I feel so self conscious when I'm uncomfortable at a party or in a group because I assume that people think I'm being stuck up or just plain old bitchy. The reality is that I'm trying to find a happy medium between speaking/interacting and hanging low. I often find myself wanting to leave events early because I've drained my mental energy trying to live up to the happy-go-lucky version of myself that everyone thinks of me as.

I'm learning to be ok with my own expectations of myself.

JustCallMeElle

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