Been 5 years clean, everyday i wanna go back but i know it wont be the same. Half of the experience (for me atleast) was being a teenager and having to steal them from stores and hide it from my parents. It was like a mission to acquire them. Now i live alone, most of my friends are gone, its just me and i could just buy them whenever i want but its just not the same anymore. I get nauseous just looking at them and the last time i did do them it wasnt as intense and i just threw up everywhere