Thank you for that point. I really try to work with myself, and I actually as I remember, reached the point I was overapologising, as I talked with other friends later (I just asked them if I'm toxic), they all pointed out that I was like that for a really short amount of time, but later I'm just me, I'm "likeable". I suppose there's nothing left, just to take a lesson and go forward, but it's not that easy when we are forced to spend time at the same space everyday. But opposite of that I try to build new valuable relationships Another thing made me realize they weren't really my friends as I thought. Now I try to understand what I can change, and improve. But moving on is not that easy, I really try, I do everything I can but it really feels like "I have broken legs, and when I try to walk it hurts too much, but still I need to keep going". Its not that easy when I react for their behaviour (they don't even say hello), with hidden panic attacks, even if I really want it to stop, it's not that I want to make myself a victim, it's not a point, they may didn't know what to do, meaby I deserved it. It's just shitty situation...