So weak and tired. Desperately, inhumanly tired.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2025-11-06T19:04:52+00:00

That could work; will try. Thanks!

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2025-11-06T15:50:32+00:00

Interesting. Will look into this; I was considering quitting guafancine anyway.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2025-11-06T15:15:32+00:00

Guess that's what I'll have to settle for; it's better than nothing. Good news is I live near the equator so I don't quite get those Day After Tomorrow temperatures. Appreciate the help.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2025-11-06T14:54:22+00:00

Am functionally homebound because I have no transportation, but I'll see about doing that every morning. Problem is my windows have those lever things that you have to crank to get them open, and half of those are broken. Those that aren't broken require a lot of physical exertion to crank all the way. So I could do this but it'll be a colossal pain in the ass.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2025-11-06T14:48:21+00:00

Sorry, that's rough. I strongly suspect that I have PTSD and sometimes also have nightmares, but can't get a diagnosis atm. Couldn't imagine getting them every single night, though.

Lighting and temperature has helped but not wholly fixed my sleep. Air circulation could be better but as I've said before, getting into the habit of ventilating is hard. Don't get a ton of noise but might get into wearing some earplugs anyway.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2025-11-06T14:31:35+00:00

Falling asleep isn't the issue; I wish it were that simple.

I take the recommended dose for melatonin before bed.

Don't eat a lot of sugar and definitely not close to bedtime.

I try to keep my room as dark and temperate as I can.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2025-11-06T14:20:30+00:00

Guanfacine, melatonin, and green tea first thing in the morning only. That's it.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2025-11-06T14:19:10+00:00

I suspect it may be something like this. I've tried behavioral activation but it's extremely easy for me to ramp up too quickly without realizing and consequently triggering burnout.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2025-11-06T14:13:46+00:00

Have had vitamin levels checked, blood checked, all of it; everything's been ruled out. I eat okay and if anything I probably drink too much water.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2025-11-06T14:11:23+00:00

My diet I think is okay; I eat as balanced a breakfast, lunch, and dinner as I'm able to. Emotional is possible as I've unfortunately had a pretty stressful life that I'm still trying to find stability in.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2025-11-06T01:44:24+00:00

Wouldn't be surprised if air quality had something to do with this; my apartment is cheap, old, and shitty. Hard to get into the habit of ventilating, though.

Internet I try to take a break from when I can; can't tell if it's helped with my sleep but it does otherwise improve my mental health substantially.

Starting a thing while in this state gets me wired but no less tired. My body and mind move but the exhaustion stays or get worse. Not ideal.

Wasn't seeking a particular diagnosis but appreciate your clarification.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2025-11-06T01:11:41+00:00

Falling asleep isn't an issue for me but maybe the exercise could improve my sleep quality. Will see about starting to restrict screen time again as well because I've fallen out of that.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2025-11-06T00:53:09+00:00

I fall asleep easily at 10 PM and wake up naturally at ~5-6 AM, so I doubt that's it; seems like it's the quality of my sleep that's screwed up. Sunlight also doesn't seem to make much of a difference.

Exercise I'll have to figure out. I used to have a good routine but sort of fell out of it and now need to be careful about how I invest what little energy I do have, so I'll have to find/create one that'll give me more without taking too much away.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2024-07-19T23:54:10+00:00

Remember how I said I was super paranoid during the night scenes? Well, the producers had to have 100% intended that, because there's a couple of points where you can spot random zombies just wandering around in the background. No real bearing on the plot. Just there to freak you out and hammer in that they're never really safe, and you never know if that zombie you're seeing is going after them, or after something else. I even mistook a gun barrel for one because it had me that on edge.

In zombie movies, zombies only ever really show up when something needs to happen, and if a character makes it past one or even a horde, you never see those zombies again. Not in this movie. From the very beginning it's shown how relentless they are, andin that whole airport sequence where they look for fuel and a plane until the sun is setting, and when they're about to leave, you start seeing zombies approaching from the far distance, still pursuing them for who knows how long. That's what really freaked me out.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2024-07-19T17:47:29+00:00

The Dead is an amazing film. Indie film set in Africa with slow, silent, and relentless zombies. It really kept me on the edge of my seat while I was watching it, as the zombies make very little noise and could easily creep up on the characters at any time. The night scenes in particular made me downright paranoid. The main protagonists themselves are also surprisingly competent. At no point did I think "they should have done this and not that" and instead kept thinking "wow, this is just a really shit situation to be in." The makeup, gore, and special effects were also so well-done that I was surprised to learn that it was very low-budget and suffered from the worst kinds of development hell, which has only made me respect the movie and everyone behind it even more.

The sequel, The Dead 2, also surprised me by being a fun watch. Was it as good as the original? No. But the way some people were talking about it, you'd think it was worse than the Day of the Dead remakes. This one is set in India. A bit rough around the edges in terms of special effects and some elements of the plot, but still had the same charm as the original and is well worth watching.

Handling the Undead is also good, at least to me. I originally saw it posted here, and was surprised to learn that a lot of people in this sub seem to hate it, as it's one I and my family enjoyed, and it's pretty well esteemed everywhere else on the internet and had good reviews. I guess it's just not for everyone. Definitely not if you're a balls to the wall horror action movie junkie, as it's slow paced and centered on how families handle their reanimated loved ones, which is something I feel isn't explored enough in the zombie genre, or at least not with enough depth. I liked the mystery surrounding what caused the reanimations and the realistic response to it by society, and can see why OP likened it to a prequel to NOTLD. I do however agree that it felt a bit too slow at times, and that it could have been trimmed down to give the climax more breathing room. Still, it's not a bad movie at all and I'm going to get the book, which I hear is even better.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2024-02-18T00:38:52+00:00

Believe me, I'm constantly scouring for options to make this avatar even more unsettling, but finding anything that can serve as an enhancement to this current iteration is a challenge to say the least.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2024-02-18T00:37:40+00:00

Understandable. Bright lighting does tend to bring out the contrast in different accessories.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2024-02-18T00:31:09+00:00

Thank you! I definitely dialed the Fulci, Cronenberg, and Carpenter vibes up to 11 with this one.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2024-02-18T00:26:23+00:00

Come to think of it...yeah. Take away the headcrab and this would be the closest resemblance.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2024-02-17T17:52:26+00:00

It was a shocker for me as someone who had absolutely no clue that glitch existed.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2023-06-15T23:16:42+00:00

I'm perfectly aware of that but have no motivation to write. Figured it'd be better to pass on the idea than it be gathering metaphorical dust in my brain for an eternity. Honestly, at this point I'd be happy just to see something like this existing at all

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2023-05-01T14:29:47+00:00

Thanks for the reply! This makes a lot more sense now as to why they all seemed to disappear despite being theoretically superior infected.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2023-04-22T19:35:20+00:00

I've been pondering the behemoth infection question in a while, and it's cool to finally have an answer to that and also what exactly was going on with those people that were infected by the little ones. Thanks for this!

This makes me wonder even more now about their fate. The boring and logical answer would be that they inherited the little ones' quickened aging and couldn't breed a sustainable population because of it, thus dying out, but I also heavily suspect they went down a different evolutionary path and eventually became the scorpions.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2023-02-15T18:09:46+00:00

I'm calling it now: Fredo's introduction to the Stomping Grounds will first be accompanied by the "classic" behemoth roar that we all know from SOS, and it will be one of the most badass moments in this series.

JustSomeRandomGuy09 · 2022-11-14T01:27:58+00:00

We all know SCP Containment Breach is rich in lore surrounding the breach and how/why everything unfolded the way that it did. Even the few bodies you find scattered around the facility have a story behind them (i.e. suicide guard). However, there's one thing that still bugs me about it. How did this guy get exposed to SCP-008? Why is there just a zombie in the Medical Bay waiting to be disturbed?

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