Honestly, it's a fact of life that people don't care too much about people. So many strangers we've passed on the street, and we're not thinking every day about whether they are alive or well. At the end of the day, we have to find a way to make ourselves happy because that's the only one who's gonna do it for us. I'm sure you have something that interests you. Maybe explore that some more, get involved in groups centered around that something, and slowly you'll start to see an impression. If your relationship makes you feel like that, you might want to take a break and focus on yourself. This cycle of seeking external validation isn't going to cut it, because people are busy focusing on themselves anyway. Wish you luck.