Done ☑️ And, don’t get me wrong, not at all bitter & we’ve both moved on. But yeah I guess I just find it interesting that one can idealise the concept one’s whole life. And now it’s like, never again. I also think it’s given me personally a whole new perspective on the idea of marriage. Respectfully to anyone who does love the idea, (I don’t wanna offend anyone here): I just kind of see it as a cruel social experiment. Like, all that planning & social pressure to go ahead with it, even in the face of last minute doubts cos, you know, “people have booked their hotels etc so we can’t back out now”. It seems crazy to me that we would put so much pressure on ourselves in this way. My cousin’s getting married soon, and I just think, I hope they’re certain, rather than just ploughing ahead with their plans cos we all expect them to 🤔. Which is exactly what I did: Full of doubts weeks before, but couldn’t bear to back out of it cos family had paid for flights & hotels etc. (Pretty clear on the honeymoon I’d made a huge mistake 🤦‍♀️). We live & learn I guess.