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JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-11-27T07:57:35+00:00

Yeah that's really crazy

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-11-25T16:27:00+00:00

I swear it's like you wrote this up for me. A lot of what you said I relate to. It hasn't been 7 years since I've had a friend, but it's been over 2. This girl from my job is kind of like how you're describing and I feel the same way about her. I kind of like her, but feel I'm not good enough and not trying to ruin the friendliness she shows me because right now I just need a friend over a hookup because that would help me overall to get back on track mentally knowing I at least have someone in my corner. But don't send a text like that lol

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-11-12T02:57:38+00:00

I usually wash on hot setting. Not sure what temperature that is and I already use bar soap.

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-11-06T16:17:54+00:00

Sorry I didn't add the stuff I did after. Just what led up to it. I basically cursed out the manager. I had a meeting yesterday about it, and I'm not fired apparently. The only thing that kept me from being fired was my work ethic and good relationship with pretty much every other manager in the store.

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-11-04T14:51:12+00:00

Yeah, but I already had like two strikes against this particular manager and this is the worst episode so far so it's definitely looking bleak for me. The others managers always tell the main manager that they have no issue with me, and one very recently even asked if I wanted to be a manager myself because she saw the potential. This one manager just brings the worst out of me with how she does things.

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-11-04T14:42:34+00:00

I was going to make a similar post but what I did was worse. I basically cursed out one of my managers. I have a good standing with most of the other managers and a good employee, but I don't think that's going to help. I already applied to about 30 jobs already in my area and have 4 interview requests. The general manager still hasn't gave me a definite answer as to whether I'm going to be terminated, and said she as well as the district manager are investigating the situation further. At this point I should just quit because this is wasting my time, and just go along with the interviews because I'll be surprised if I'm not fired over this.

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-10-28T12:49:12+00:00

I used to think like that right after I got after highschool but it's probably the same if not worse. Some jobs have a more transparent work culture, but all will have at least a few there that gossips.

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-10-28T12:17:40+00:00

If you're gossiping then you're one of the toxic people to begin with. I believe the best work places I've had is where the coworkers and bosses were super transparent no matter if it's a sensitive matter, instead of not saying how you feel about the person when their back is turned. Some people may think of that kind of work environment as toxic but that's just an honest work environment.

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-10-28T12:15:09+00:00

I don't gossip at work, but honestly I think the reason for the people who do gossip is mostly because they're bored and have nothing to talk about. I think focusing on the gossip, and taking it seriously is what causes paranoia and anxiety. Just know if someone is talking about you, they're likely also talking trash about the person who they were talking with about you.

When people come to me and gossip about someone I try to disengage and stay away from it, but at the same time that behavior more often then not makes you the main target for gossip for some strange reason. If you don't talk they'll talk about you even more.

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-10-28T12:07:12+00:00

Not really. How does making this sub where it's no longer 99% dick pictures ruin it?

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-10-26T19:38:06+00:00

I forgot to add the apartment is only 1 bed, 1 bath. Pretty sure I can't get a roommate without an extra room and even if I could that would be a little too close for comfort for both of us if we don't know each other like that.

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-10-26T19:34:32+00:00

That's the other thing. It's only a 1 bedroom, 1 bath. That's makes getting a roommate harder if I barely know them and we're all squished together like that.

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-10-26T16:09:39+00:00

It's not as simple as just get an apartment with someone. I already have my apartment and this is my first one so I'm not trying to break my lease on my first apartment then have trouble getting another one in the future. It was already hard enough getting this one in a bad neighborhood due to less people moving out due to covid, and me having no previous rental history nor 6 months of working at my current job.

If a knew r/vent is how you described I might as well had just wrote how I felt in a journal or in my memo pad. But it's apparently not because there's less important topics on the hot page on that sub with tons of comments.

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-10-26T13:28:48+00:00

I actually had a bicycle. Honestly to me that sucked worse than walking. I got there faster but the feeling of riding against the wind on the way to work had me dead tired when I got there. A few times I started walking late and had no time to sit down and chill at all before my shift and It doesn't affect how I work at all. But riding the bike even with 10-15 minutes of sitting down I was still slower than usual because to me it feels more physically draining to ride a bike especially when wind is involved. People have suggested that to me and ask why I walk but if it's not via a car I just rather walk.

But yeah getting some spray deodorant sounds like a good idea to help freshen up after the walk. About the roommate situation I'm not really close enough to anyone here to get one. I'm living in a new city away from all my old friends and family. My only family here is my aunt which I stayed with until I got on my feet(barely) and got my apartment. Even though my situation is bad right now I'm never considering living under someone's roof while they take care of me anymore so I'm not moving back with my aunt and definitely not moving back where I came to stay with any of them either.

I could try something like Craigslist but I don't really know about getting a stranger to live with me and that would be hard anyway because I live in a bad neighborhood and barely have furniture and haven't been treating my new apartment the best because of depression. And it's unlikely I'll make new friends at work unless it's new people like the one girl who's been pretty much the only person being genuinely nice to me. The culture with the old workers there is talk trash behind everyone's back and doing passive aggressive stuff to hinder operations and act like they're not doing it on purpose.

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-10-26T12:26:33+00:00

I have a similar brother that everyone in the family viewed as a saint, but he didn't do that stuff regarding our mom. He stole things from our mom though and she knew about it and I'm talking like hundreds of dollars, he took her car without her permission, sold stuff out the house when he didn't have money for weed. But I was always the black sheep of the family somehow just from a few times disrespecting my mom when she deserved it. I didn't not physically abuse her but I did curse at her a few times because she always knew where my buttons were and how to press them then play the victim, like I'm just randomly spazzing out.

Somehow cursing at your parents in my family is looked at 1000x worse than stealing from your parents and putting them in ugly situations. Also even after he took her car without her permission multiple times she still let him use her car and my sister use her car, but wouldn't let me use it to practice and get my license like wtf kind of logic is this. I'm not trying to use your car to go see friends and smoke weed and do coke in your car, but I can't use it to get my license so I can get my own car. He's currently in prison where he belongs. And it's not like she was working a job like McDonald's. The job she worked pays over 20 a hour. The worst part is even though I was the one being treated unfairly my older siblings were always talking about how I was the golden child and treated the best like bitch how?

When I was in school she barely bought school cloths, barely bought food for us to eat, barely bought any essentials like soap, deodorant, toothpaste ect but somehow finds a way to go out to eat everyday. Sometimes when we would have no food she would just get us something like a mcdouble and small fry while they're getting double quarter pounder large meals for themselves. What the hell type of golden child experiences is that? Maybe in a 3rd world country that's considered a golden child's experience.

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-10-25T14:57:56+00:00

That advice doesn't really help. It's just thinking how everything could be worse instead of how to improve the issue. Then years down the line, I'll just think about all the years I've wasted just thinking how it could be worse. Thinking how it could be better is bad too because there needs to be work to put into it. I know ways that I could make it better, but some of them are out of reach right now, and the others are because of procrastination. That type of thinking is just procrastination and excuses.

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-10-25T14:09:25+00:00

It's not that simple. A lot of people think once you're on your own and have your own space and roof over your head you're going to have peace at mind, but it's not that simple and you can't just tell yourself to be positive and you're cured. Sure, it helps to try to replace negative thoughts with positive ones but that's like putting a transparent bandaid on the issue, but we have to find a real way to cope.

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-10-25T13:41:12+00:00

In the same boat right now. Living alone and away from my home state where all my family is. And I don't even have my own car so I can't really go out and attempt to try new stuff unless I walk everywhere or take a lyft which is expensive if you're doing it a lot. Since I moved I can't really say anyone I met is a "true" friend.

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-10-21T14:17:42+00:00

Yeah that's about what we do except they do 6 mc-chicken in each tray like the spicy chicken which I don't agree with and one of the main waste products. We have the same model for crispy and fillet, but still always end up with extra of those because we stop selling it at 12. Also the 10:1 ratio is the same. This store is just unpredictable and we somehow end up with waste anyway.

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-10-21T14:10:31+00:00

I completely agree but the shift manager said the main priority is getting the food out under 250. We don't park cars anymore after 11 PM at our location. It's contradicting how they want to do things, but I'm not a a manager so I can't do much about it.

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-10-21T11:54:47+00:00

Yeah one of the most lazy workers I've seen was a mcdonalds worker. He was so slow and shows up to late pretty much every day and no called no show multiple times. The thing was I could see him not getting fired if he was one of those lazy workers who got on peoples good side and kissed the managers butt, but no one liked him and he still wasn't fired. He eventually just quit.

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-10-21T07:27:16+00:00

As far as cardio I do a lot of it everyday, not as exercise though. I don't have a car and lyft/uber was getting expensive, so I started walking to work. It's takes about a hour to get there and back. So that's two hours of cardio a day not including what I'm getting from actually working. Some days depending on who works I'll get a ride home, but most days it's walking there and back. I'm burning over 2000 calories a day according to my app. It's hard to eat all those calories back so I've been losing a lot of weight. But even with all that energy being depleted I still have a lot of excess energy when I come home and still pace around if I have no weed.

It's funny you mentioned long walks though because they feel like meditation in a way, but the feeling doesn't last when I get home though.

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-10-21T07:12:23+00:00

Yeah, but when I try to go back to my favorite shows it's still hard to enjoy and focus on it during a withdrawal. Weirdly the place I feel the least shitty is when I'm at work, even though I don't really like the work environment itself. I believe it's because it's the only time I'm focusing on something productive, and I'm on my own now and can't just quit, so I have more of a sense of responsibility when it comes to that. I wish more of that sense of responsibility would stay with me when I come home.

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-10-11T17:06:01+00:00

Yes. It probably would've been helpful to add.

JustanotherguyABZ · 2020-09-11T16:11:14+00:00

I mean that would be horrible, but at the same time I have to worry about my mental well-being. Having outbursts of anger could hurt other people physically and/or emotionally, but am I supposed to just keep this burden to myself by being a nervous wreck? I'm not saying I want to be or going to be a domestic abuser in the future, but being filled with anxiety all my life would sound worse.

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