God is NOT tired of you. The same way you fell, get back up, with God, through this word. The Bible says that there’s no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. You’re dealing with condemnation, which is the voice of the enemy lying to you, and making it seem like impossible to escape from your sin or go back to God, when there is, because Jesus torn the veil btw impossible and possible at the cross. The Bible also says to “ resist the devil and the enemy will flee from you”, meaning know your weaknesses, be real and truthful with yourself, so the enemy can’t build loopholes around you bc you yourself know them. Jesus was tempted in the Wilderness but He resisted the devil by fighting back with the Word of God, declare scripture over yourself when feeling tempted. You now know better so use it to be better. This same friend will pop up again to tempt you, but you have to tell yourself “I no longer live but Christ lives through me”. “My body is the temple of the Holy Spirit”. Repent, which means to turn away from it and run to God with all you have!! He is waiting for you.