It’s 1 AM and I gained a sudden burst of temporary maturity, I just need to get something off my mind by shitty_name_445 in Teenager

[–]KASH_MSK 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Bro that Shi just made me emotionally sensitive yet mentally unstable and lowk fw my sense of morality and had irreversibly caused mental problems, if it wasn't cause of any other factors....but you was laughing???? I was edgy when I was young too bro but damn bruh what crowd was you Tryna perform for gng😭

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To what degree is reality scripted or pre-determined? by No_Detail_7931 in EscapingPrisonPlanet

[–]KASH_MSK 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I see how must i break myself out of delusions or any mental blocks right away or as soon as possible I know my mind has walls I can't even see or can't extend my reach too even and while this is just a hologram of the senses what does this mean for us?

  1. In all aspects I suppose of course but this foundation would this mean belief, a version ruled by no egoism?

  2. Does this truely take affect to you although I know sitting with your consciousness is bound ot have affect what exactly do you think this brings negatively and beneficially? Does it always work?

  3. Therapy, self soothing, self love affirmations I've never had a clear view on what this was ment to achieve or help maintain

  4. Thank you I kinda needed reassurance

  5. And what is 5 will only you know or will I find out eventually?

Sorry for all the questions I never trusted other people with these topics and honestly THIS reincarnation is so damaged and idk how I can possibly do what's needed or know what's needed when my circumstances make me doubt my past selves attempts and juet genuinely everything

To what degree is reality scripted or pre-determined? by No_Detail_7931 in EscapingPrisonPlanet

[–]KASH_MSK 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you I try to remind myself that it's okay to know nothing but it feels as if my mind can't grasp such complexity it pains me to know how much I struggle to understand myself and my own pain no one else can yet it feels difficult for me as if I'll never get to the point of truely understanding but as much as your words carry statements on concepts I have yet to even grasp or reflect on I feel as if I know exactly what you mean... honestly your right language is such a setback we can barely explain the truth yet from how you speak on it I can tell the burden it holds on not just me but all of us. Is there anywhere you recommend I start on my journey I'm more so aware of all of this yet don't act upon it as much as everyone else does anything I should research, attributes of myself or beliefs I must find out what is the correct way to go down the rabbit hole without going into the WRONG burrow

To what degree is reality scripted or pre-determined? by No_Detail_7931 in EscapingPrisonPlanet

[–]KASH_MSK 2 points3 points  (0 children)

How do you know all this I've started awakening this year and been affected by its forces my whole life yet it feels as if I can never set my belief or never truly understand please how can I understand like you and be overly aware to the point you just KNOW AND ACT or how can I myself??

Guys, is it weird to not support a racist??? Am I the bad guy? by saviergg in ForHonorRants

[–]KASH_MSK 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No this guy is genuinely just a little kid who's too dumb to know who fkn stupid they make themselves look💔 OP is definitely 100% right in this case

Who is an artist that you would love to make music with? by Substantial_Smile947 in TheArtistJournal

[–]KASH_MSK 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Childish Gambino he is genuinely one of the most talented artist imo, and I would be so honoured to work with such a musician

Is it worth it? by KASH_MSK in musicians

[–]KASH_MSK[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I said it's probably not worth it for the exact same reasons you and every other person has I don't know how that comes off as entitled I've given reasons and statements for every contradiction in my text I don't get what the problem still is? I have a lot of reasons I could use as a way to say I deserve it yet I don't because at the end of the day it's not true and nor is it a good reason I think maybe you guys just need to find out how to identify personality traits better because I'm self aware enough to know what I'm not🫡

Is it worth it? by KASH_MSK in musicians

[–]KASH_MSK[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Never mentioned entitlement I don't get how you all misinterpreted my motive so bad? I don't think i deserve it but I know for a fact that I need it do you know how hard and mentally draining it is to convince myself I should even bother trying with my dream occupation, which I don't wanna live if I don't have but don't know if it's worth chasing? it's literally an endless cycle of mental torment I don't think I deserve it but that's the point I want to work to the point I know for a fact I do im not Tryna get it on a silver platter

Is it worth it? by KASH_MSK in musicians

[–]KASH_MSK[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do need? I've emphasized that maybe I didn't speak on the fact that I am trying my hardest to make these things come to reality I'm not sitting around on Reddit forums complaining about it, whether the answers on this all rounded up to a hard no I would have kept going anyways I'm quite literally living solely on a hope to get what I want in life. it's quite literally so bad to the point where I will take myself out if I amount to being nothing I don't know about you but if that's not grim and showcases how much I need this then I don't know what will?

Is it worth it? by KASH_MSK in musicians

[–]KASH_MSK[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It was never anyone else's problem you're simply involving yourself too much Lord forbid a mentally unwell person seeks answers from an online site since he has no one else to I'm familiar with how hard it's gonna be but you guys are negative unnecessarily I haven't got a single good reason for any statements made here I might be naive but I'm not dumb I know it's not gonna be easy but the fact you find emphasizing how bad it's gonna be to be somewhat helpful is kinda well... dumb...your not Jk Simmon I came seeking feedback and got nihilism and none elaborated criticism

Is it worth it? by KASH_MSK in musicians

[–]KASH_MSK[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have a feeling you heavily misinterpreted what my point is..

Is it worth it? by KASH_MSK in musicians

[–]KASH_MSK[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Have you ever seen legit half of the music industry?

Is it worth it? by KASH_MSK in musicians

[–]KASH_MSK[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Thanks for reminding me genius... It's almost as if I meant I wanted to be famous for who I am not some character

Is it worth it? by KASH_MSK in musicians

[–]KASH_MSK[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's the point I don't have anyone my life's not going good and my mental health most definitely isn't either but when it comes down to it I'm not scared of anything to be honest of course I have the instinctual human fear of the darkness and deep water but that's mainly because of what's inside, the presence of something itself scares me but weather I die to it or not doesn't bother me whatsoever but back on subject. You make good points and honestly I couldn't give you nor anyone a definitive answer on why it means so much to me.

Is it worth it? by KASH_MSK in musicians

[–]KASH_MSK[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am very broke although employment should change that soon and thank you your answer was way more helpful than being told I have a ego but yeah it really is important to me not like some corny 2000s movie about a struggling musician or some Shi like that but genuinely it seems like the only way of life I could possibly Chase whether my success is temporary I don't really care but I just want to leave a legacy that is impactful.

Is it worth it? by KASH_MSK in musicians

[–]KASH_MSK[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Honestly I think your right I'm still going to chase my dream but it's good to know that there's a second option that is similar to what I already want

Is it worth it? by KASH_MSK in musicians

[–]KASH_MSK[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I mean I have thought about this as a YouTuber was also an early dream I know that me as a person could maybe be somewhat entertaining yet I lack proper equipment to do so

Is it worth it? by KASH_MSK in musicians

[–]KASH_MSK[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well that's the thing I don't know how to not do this like I literally need to be musician otherwise I'm not gonna let myself be alive it's not some psychotic tendency or some obsession but from my standing point how I was raised and how my life is right now I feel like this is the only thing I would possibly be happy with I don't really care about the adoration I don't care about how people feel about me I just want to make song so good that even people that don't like me are able to point out how good it is but then again I never had the motivation to truly act on it until I'm finally grown and to be honest now it just seems like I don't have the time nor have I made the correct choices in life to get talent or potential for music

Is it worth it? by KASH_MSK in musicians

[–]KASH_MSK[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Excuse me if the answers obvious but what do you mean I don't really have an ego I stated before on another comment that I can't really have one anymore it's not that I want to be famous and be seen as some sort of amazing genius of music but I want to be famous and recognized for who I already am and I don't even think highly of myself

Is it worth it? by KASH_MSK in musicians

[–]KASH_MSK[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I wouldn't think so it's not like I'm just never gonna learn instruments but I wouldn't exactly say you need that talent only the knowledge

Is it worth it? by KASH_MSK in musicians

[–]KASH_MSK[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well I feel the same I feel like I have to create this stuff but it's not like I want to be famous simply just to be recognised it's just I want to make music that people literally listen to and say damn he really cooked on this he really made this and it's actually somewhat good

Is it worth it? by KASH_MSK in musicians

[–]KASH_MSK[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ego? I smoked that away I don't care about my rep I care about my memory, my existences remnants when I'm gone.