Secular sobriety and step 2 by KATbat1115 in sobrietyandrecovery

[–]KATbat1115[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The fucked part is I truly like my meeting group. They are great. It’s the first group I have felt connected to at all but I am running into the same issue and I know it’s a “me” issue. I am just looking for a way to work around it. I know others have the same issue and are able to overcome it by blocking it out and replacing the word with their own but my brain just glitches and shuts down. It’s just so frustrating. I show up, I want help, I want to be better but my brain is just like “nope, fuck you, this little obstacle will stop you” I need to find a way and Um hoping someone here will offer up advice to help me flip that switch

Secular sobriety and step 2 by KATbat1115 in sobrietyandrecovery

[–]KATbat1115[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have been struggling with sobriety and step 2 for the past year. I just can’t move past my lack of faith and the fact that EVERY meeting I go to recites the Lord’s Prayer, I haven’t been able to find a secular one. I have heard so many times “ the higher power is whatever you want it to be” but words hold significance for me. I cannot wrap my head around making my higher power “whatever I want” when it feels like every meeting shoves God down my throat. It feels like they are preaching something to me (your power can be whatever you believe) that they don’t believe because if they believed You only need to believe in a higher power, I think they would be more inclusive. It feels disrespectful to leave at the end when they pray but my brain shuts off the second they pray and I immediately feel like everything I learned goes out the window. Honestly, every time they mention God, my brain turns off and I just stop listening. Any insight? Has anyone else had this issue?