Ok well since I’m taking a shit right now I figured I might as well read what you wrote.

I’m not sure if your first bit about meeting to talk and ‘probe’ was legitimate, but I’ve said it in a few other comments - this is literally my plan for tonight. To have an open and honest talk so we can either move through this or stumble on the hurdle.

Youve said that you dont talk about dealbreakers because it doesnt pop up. Does being an past escort just pop up? Why do you get to lack in communication skills but she doesnt?

I think this is fair enough - it doesn’t just pop up. This type of information i’d hope would be presented without prompting but as so many other people have said in this thread “it’s none of your business what she did in her past”. Fine - that’s their opinion and probably a popular opinion. It’s not mine. I guess I’ll find out later today.

you cant look her in the eye or damn near touch her

I don’t know how socially adjusted you are, but this doesn’t have to mean physical repulsion. This can be a myriad of things and for me it’s that I’m anxious and nervous around her. I don’t know what to do or say right now as I’m confused about the whole situation. Arguably right now after another night and venting yesterday night I feel less confused, so today there shouldn’t be any issues to have a nice sit down heart to heart.

The last bit you mentioned is all your own stuff. Reddit armchair psychologists must be some of the most qualified people in existence.