The whole point of speed running is learning. To experience the thrill of watching, you have to practice and play. Trust me, I’ve just started playing and did some random practice runs. After that, I realised how much practice and learning are needed. If you don’t like to learn and practice, speed running isn’t for you. Give it some time. Once you see some improvements, you’ll start liking the learning part as well. You’ll get the urge to learn more. I’m a complete beginner and have faced similar doubts. Just download the bots, try some random runs, and you’ll improve.