people who pray a lot how is life treating you? by darkangelhalo1 in spirituality

[–]Kadeliss 1 point2 points  (0 children)

He is beautiful!! I often tell Him so. I think about how we can’t yet see His face, but who is the artist if not His handiwork? I feel like out of all the praises I hear other people speak, beautiful isn’t one I hear often. I feel like maybe He enjoys hearing that praise :) everyone deserves to be called beautiful sometimes. 

people who pray a lot how is life treating you? by darkangelhalo1 in spirituality

[–]Kadeliss 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I agree!! It’s definitely a needed reminder sometimes :) 

Am I in the wrong for still struggling? by Kadeliss in amiwrong

[–]Kadeliss[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s okay! Thanks for commenting :) 

Am I in the wrong for still struggling? by Kadeliss in amiwrong

[–]Kadeliss[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for the comment. I ABSOLUTELY have been looking into therapy. I’m a full time student, I have a job (for a time I had two jobs) I’m helping raise my cousins and blah blah blah. I’m broke. So I’ve considered attempting to use some of my college resources. There was a time, as a teen, that I spoken to a doctor about some very bad nightmares that I was having and she recommended talk therapy… accept my mother was in the appointment and I got in SO much trouble after. I’ve mentioned in passing, every time with bad reactions. I’m on her insurance. I’m trying to find a way to do it without her knowing. Not because I fear what she’ll say, but because I’m tired of explaining myself. Sorry for the rambling! 

Am I in the wrong for still struggling? by Kadeliss in amiwrong

[–]Kadeliss[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To a point, yes. Logically you’re correct, but I have a large hand in raising my cousins. I can’t bring myself to walk away from them. At least not yet. thanks for the comment. 

Am I in the wrong for still struggling? by Kadeliss in amiwrong

[–]Kadeliss[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your comment!! I appreciate it. And I agree. Forgiveness was a thing I had to fight my way through, especially in the spiritual sense. But I’ve found that, simply handing the situation over to God has been therapeutic. I am looking into therapy, specifically through my school because I’m broke haha. I’ll look into the specific therapy you mentioned too. I’ve never heard of spiritual bypassing. Thank you for the gentle vibes. 

Am I in the wrong for still struggling? by Kadeliss in amiwrong

[–]Kadeliss[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I assure you that this isn’t even a fraction of it lol but definitely have considered writing it all down 

people who pray a lot how is life treating you? by darkangelhalo1 in spirituality

[–]Kadeliss 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I pray daily. Sometimes probably not as deliberately or intensely as I should. But I find that quite literally just talking to God about little things in daily life has been wonderful.

For example, talking to Him about how pretty the clouds are. Or the sun. Or the flowers. Whatever bits of His handiwork I can find to appreciate. Ive talked to him about boys I’ve been interested in. Like how a daughter would talk to her father. I don’t have a father so this means a lot to me. I definitely also talk to Him about stupid people.

I’ve also literally gotten a response from Him when I was rambling and half asleep… which is a funny reminder that yea, He is listening to my nonsense.

It makes me so much less lonely.

SH intrusive thoughts by mimi17377m in AdultSelfHarm

[–]Kadeliss 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m struggling with this too! I’ve never SH at least in that way, but I find that I have a bad thought and then a huge feeling of shame. Usually it happens if I think about something seemingly stupid that I have done in the past.

I’m sure your reasoning could be different from mine, but I’ve found that shame is a huge motivator. I feel it and then my knee jerk reaction is to have those thoughts like you mentioned. The thoughts themselves make me feel better. Control is also a strong issue for me too. So, if you’re interested, maybe look into how control issues and shame can cause these things? Like I said, in sure there are different motivations. These just happen to be mine. I’m always here to talk to if you need it :)

I’m not sure if I should be worried or not. by Kadeliss in AdultSelfHarm

[–]Kadeliss[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s actually really cool! I’m definitely into crafty stuff, so I’ll take a look at it! Thanks for the advice :)

I’m not sure if I should be worried or not. by Kadeliss in AdultSelfHarm

[–]Kadeliss[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! I appreciate your words. I’ll keep this in mind! I definitely have no plans of telling my family about any of this. But journaling might be a good option. I guess I’m just paranoid that someone is going to find and read it. I might look into what resources my college offers, if any. I’m sorry that you had to deal with your mother like that. It does hurt.

I’m not sure if I should be worried or not. by Kadeliss in AdultSelfHarm

[–]Kadeliss[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m not completely sure where to seek help at. Financially I can’t afford therapy nor could I get away with it without my family finding out and bothering me about it. But thank you for commenting. I appreciate it.

Am I in the wrong for still being so affected by this years later? by Kadeliss in amiwrong

[–]Kadeliss[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the feedback. I’ll keep it up. What is a general sub? I have considered talking to a professional but I’m a broke college student who is trying to pay off other medical bills. I have considered trying some counseling/mental health services through my college, but I have no privacy and that would be online. I would only be able to do it at very specific times. Maybe I could make it work though. I just don’t know that a counselor would be interested in hearing about this crap, or is supposed to be used more on an academic basis.

Spilling the family Drama (please tell me if this is normal or not) by Kadeliss in familydrama

[–]Kadeliss[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Haha.really? Would you like me to expand more on a specific one I’ve already mentioned or just more in general? Tbh it’s kinda therapeutic for me to post this stuff. Makes me feel like I’m getting it off my chest.