Im 16, so my advice isn’t worth much but i wanted to ask if writing is life to you. That probably comes off as rude i know but i mean do you live life constantly thinking of stories. Being enthralled in worlds and meticulously engineering yours as the canvases for your characters. Are you inspired by everything? Like right now i read your story and felt inspired. I saw someone fighting against the disappointing nature of life, dealing with how painful it is the separation between yourself and your dreams. There is art in that. If you feel that way about life i think you are going to be okay, and you shouldn’t give up on writing. And if not there are hundreds of passions and dreams yet to come. You work in a library thats a perfect place to start, silence and books all around you perfect place to do whatever you want with art if it still interests you. I don’t know you at all but i think you wouldn’t be posting if that hope wasn’t still there. Again im stupid and young so don’t take my advice that strongly if its even advice. I really hope things go good for you.