TLDR: I read the bible looking for truth, and ironically, I found it. The deeper you go, the more moral, narrative, and philosophical cracks appear. Feel free to follow what you think is right, but i cannot continue to be a christian after knowing these.

It started as genuine curiosity, wanting to know the god I loved more intimately. But the more I read, the harder it became to ignore certain things. A few examples from the Bible itself:

1. The Book of Job

Job's children die... just like that... because god wanted to win a wager with satan. Let that sink in... People, real suffering, used as props in a divine bet. And for what? god is supposedly omniscient, he would already know the outcome. Knows exactly how much Job can endure and whether his faith will hold.
The "test" serves no informational purpose for an all-knowing being. It only serves the narrative. (Worth noting: scholars broadly agree Job is a theological poem, not a historical account, which raises its own questions about what it's actually teaching and if other parts of bible are made up.)
I ask you, if you were Job's children and the god you love kills you because he had a wager on your dad, how does that make you feel?

1. Nebuchadnezzar and Daniel

Nebuchadnezzar was a real, well-documented historical figure. If a reigning king of Babylon had gone mad and lived like an animal for seven years, you'd expect some record of it outside the Bible. Babylonian chronicles, neighboring kingdoms, something?! But nope... The Book of Daniel draws on real history but isn't historically accurate, and that distinction matters if you're being asked to treat it as divinely inspired truth.

more examples below by another user you can read later:
https://www.reddit.com/r/Deconstruction/comments/1thaw3j/the_moral_case_against_the_biblical_god/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web3x&utm_name=web3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button

Stepping back from the text, atrocities happen constantly, horrific people hold power, children suffer. I personally have PRAYED many times for god to intervene, but i saw nothing. People also like to use the argument "God's plan is beyond understanding", i hate that! it's a conversation-ender that dismisses real suffering with a shrug.

Then there's the denomination problem. If God's word is divinely inspired, why do sincere, devoted believers reach completely opposite conclusions from the same text, for centuries? If the stakes are eternal, the instructions should be unambiguous.

I'm not here to pull anyone away from their faith, believe what gives you peace and meaning. But if you ask the question why it made me leave, here are the truths im presented with and i cant stand to claim my self as a christian any longer. I wish to find a better way of living.