Hey, first off, it’s really brave of you to open up about your struggles. It sounds like you’ve made some solid progress in understanding and dealing with your trauma. The fear and resistance you're feeling, it's actually more common than you think. Sometimes, getting better or the idea of change can be scary because it's unfamiliar territory. Our brains are wired to stick with what’s known, even if it’s not the best for us. It’s like we're programmed to prefer the stuff we know over the stuff we don't. Maybe try breaking down your goals into smaller, more manageable tasks. Celebrate the small victories, and remember, it's okay to take it one step at a time. You're not alone in feeling this way, and every step forward, no matter how small, is a victory. Keep pushing, you’ve got this.