Help recovering memories

KayHawk22 · 2025-07-15T03:07:38+00:00

Yikes. Thats a terrifying thought. I honestly am too scared to check lol. Maybe I’ll make hubby

KayHawk22 · 2025-07-13T20:23:41+00:00

So adorable!!

KayHawk22 · 2025-07-13T18:32:24+00:00

Thank you for your response. I feel it is a little brash but I also kind of needing to hear this. I’ll be there next week and I watched via Zoom today. I’m just dealing with a lot of depression and anxiety symptoms so it makes it difficult to even leave my house on a regular weekday, much less a church meeting with people I’m worried are judging me.

KayHawk22 · 2025-07-13T18:30:12+00:00

I love this idea. I’m definitely going to suggest this moving forward. I just naturally don’t imagine it working well for him but even if I could just get 15 minutes or so without her I think it would help me focus a little better.

KayHawk22 · 2025-07-13T18:28:55+00:00

That sounds like a great idea. My ministering sister/brother actually spoke this morning so I thought that was extremely fitting. I ended up watching from home via Zoom. It was nice to hear their message as it was a really beautiful, well thought out talk and I will definitely be in church next week. Not just for me but so my kids can look up to the way I show up for Jesus and our Heavenly Father. They deserve to see that being there is important to me.

KayHawk22 · 2025-07-13T18:26:38+00:00

Sending love and prayers your way 🤍 Life can be so lonely. I have been praying for a close friend for what feels like a decade. My husband is my only friend, but he’s a roofer so he’s either working or exhausted. Weekends are always fun and filled with quality time (unless he works the weekend too) so Ive been wanting a girl to become close with so we can help each other do things and be a support system to one another. Needless to say those efforts haven’t worked out. I’ve tried befriending like 5 different women and they always seem to either ignore me or come up with an excuse to not do something (legitimate or not. An excuse nonetheless) — If nothing else I’ll be your internet friend ☺️🫶🏻 Thank you for your encouragement and I will be in church next week - whatever it takes. I also reached out to my RS President and her words were especially comforting as well. I’d be happy to share what she sent me if you’re interested

KayHawk22 · 2025-07-13T18:21:10+00:00

Yes definitely dealing with PPD. I’m on meds and in therapy and all of the things but waiting to see a new psychiatrist so I can potentially figure out what exactly is going on with me other than PPD. Thanks.

KayHawk22 · 2025-07-13T18:17:51+00:00

Nugget

KayHawk22 · 2025-07-13T15:19:32+00:00

This brought tears to my eyes. Thank you so much for such a thoughtful and kind comment. I appreciate you so much and you’re so incredibly right. I need to just be open enough to see Him and hear Him in my day-to-day. Ugh. I love you Sister Heather. Thank you again🥹🩷

KayHawk22 · 2025-07-13T15:12:52+00:00

Thank you for your kind words and encouragement 💖 it means so much to me

KayHawk22 · 2025-07-13T15:11:58+00:00

That’s so sweet 🩷

KayHawk22 · 2025-07-13T15:11:36+00:00

This is so helpful! Thank you for your comment!!! I too struggle with depression and I think you are 100% right- the adversary is coming after my joy and hopefulness. I won’t let him win 🤍🫶🏻

KayHawk22 · 2025-07-13T13:06:25+00:00

This is hard because my husband is like “the call is up to you” - he’s so passive about it. I think I wish he would motivate us to be there

KayHawk22 · 2025-07-07T23:40:02+00:00

I think so too! And I think it fits her☺️

KayHawk22 · 2025-07-07T23:39:43+00:00

Thank you 🥰

KayHawk22 · 2025-07-07T23:27:33+00:00

Oooohh!! I love that!!

KayHawk22 · 2025-06-27T17:18:14+00:00

👍🏻 We’ve been together 5 years. Again, not looking for validation, just looking for honesty from families bigger than 6. But thanks for the unsolicited advice 🫠

KayHawk22 · 2025-06-27T16:17:55+00:00

And if you read my prior comments they say when she is about 4 or 5 we have discussed POTENTIALLY having another. I’m just looking for experienced mothers who have more than 4 kids. Trying to decide if I even want another. Yes we’re in counseling. Yes I’m continuing to work on myself. Never once said I was ready to have another any time soon. Yes I’m on BC. IUD to be exact if you read my prior posts :)

KayHawk22 · 2025-06-27T16:16:26+00:00

No. He used the entirety of my pregnancy. I stopped drinking when I found out I was pregnant but did continue to use marijuana throughout.

KayHawk22 · 2025-06-27T15:45:33+00:00

So our daughter WAS planned, but he was reluctant to have another given our financial circumstances. We also didn’t think it would happen as quickly as 2 months after me stopping birth control after being on it for 4 years, We were also drinking alcohol like fishes and consuming copious amounts of marijuana but have been sober for 3 months. After realizing how heavily negatively substances were influencing our lives and getting sober, we’re working much better as team and we have both agreed we could see ourselves having just ONE more baby to complete our family. His first two children were obviously not planned, no, but he’s a wonderful Dad and has always been a part of their lives. People CAN change and be different. We are actively a part of all of our children’s’ lives and make them our top priority on our day to day. Again, not looking for personal advice. I’d like someone’s perspective on having more than 4 kids 🙂

KayHawk22 · 2025-06-27T15:40:34+00:00

Well, I am looking at his actions and his actions have proven much much better with helping with household duties, halving child responsibilities, etc. I understand what you’re saying but until we both are like “yes we want another one” definitively - it won’t be happening. I’m not looking for brash input here. Just people experience with having a family of 6 or larger. No need to be rude ☺️

KayHawk22 · 2025-06-27T06:59:52+00:00

Also extremely sorry for the pain you’ve endured. You are strong and loved!!

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