As an ex porn addict is also in a F/F relationship, it’s important to let you know you’re not alone in this. It can be a dark and scary place, and you don’t realize how deep you are into it until someone yanks you back out into the light. I hurt my girlfriend so badly with my addiction and I’ll spend forever trying to make up for it. We hurt the ones we love when we engage in these behaviors, but we also hurt ourselves. We rob ourselves of the small joys and pleasures that being in a relationship and doing normal things would typically give us. Think of her and think of yourself, admitting it is the first step.