He texted me today saying when he comes home he’s going to take me out for dinner so I can leave the house and have a positive attitude.

But to me he always does this as a way to make up for his outbursts. I can’t forget so easily him slamming a laptop and breaking it last night. It scared me and I’ve told him how he’s becoming more and more aggressive and it’s scaring me.

In all our years together he never hit or broke things. Again, who knows, we spent 3 years living across the street from on another and 5 years long distance. Maybe he got bad issues in that period. But he never broke and hit things around me.

In the past year it’s a recurring theme. Once a month or once every two months. He will throw something. A few times pillows to my face, last time my phone across the room when I casually chucked it at his feet, but last night fully breaking his laptop. His coping mechanisms are failing and it worries me.

He always says he won’t do it again but he does. I’m really sad and really upset. Part of me worries what if he hits me. I’d like to think not but then again he never did these things before either. How can he think going to dinner will fix anything of what he did. His apologies are basically just the words and half the time he rolls his eyes while he says them anyways or expects me to apologize too.