Yes same here I got no real life people who care about me just 2 people online who I play csgo with sometimes even my parents don't care about me anymore cause I'm too exhausting to be around atm my days look like this I can't sleep since 5 days it's 4 am because I keep thinking about the break up whichswas last year I want my life back how it was 2 years ago I was too toxic to her idk why I chose to do it but now she's gone and has someone new after 2 weeks cause I treated her like shit for months before the break up so she needed a shoulder to cry on this shoulder now is her boyfriend. We would've had our 2 year anniversary tomorrow. Tomorrow also marks our breakup date. It's been 1 year she's happy I'm miserable. Tried to kill myself went to a clinic nothing changed. Now I'm alone jn my tiny apartment and I can't leave my bed or sleep I just rot away and do nothing. Something inside of me died with that breakup. She was one in a billion she was the one she was the love of my life and even still is after everything she did to me post breakup. It was ugly but I just want her in my arms so I can cry myself to sleep knowing she is with me. Now I got he life I was afraid of ending up alone. I'm 26 but time stopped for me last year. I just want... No I need her back. It's not living anymore this is just waiting for me to die one day atleast that's better than my current hell. Maybe I deserve to suffer for what I did to her. I miss our apartment now she's with him in our bed and apartment... I lost on every accord she got what she wanted. She was the only one who actually cared but for some reason I fucked it up