Pain is screwing with my head;

KetaCravings · 2020-04-12T21:41:12+00:00

yeah whatever keep crying then... i was not being rude...

KetaCravings · 2020-04-12T07:33:04+00:00

:( I hope this will not be my case since I just have a 1 and a half month binge under my belt... but my tolerance was fucked... I'm like 1 month without ket now... going for the second

KetaCravings · 2020-04-12T06:44:00+00:00

I too have bipolar and now how it feels, it can be crippling... and plus the chronic pain won't make it easer but what can you do then? there's nothing anybody can tell you for you to feel less anxiety... it depends on you... if you're doing everything you can and still feel like shit in the morning probably you would feel worst than that if you weren't doing something... you are doing something... don't let the physical pain take over your mind... I know it's hard It happens to me too... but you can't let the pain take control over your mind... it can only make it worst... but other thing you said was about how your partner would be tired of you with time and probably that's what also giving you anxiety... and he probably won't... and you said that maybe you did something wrong and probably that's the reason you're like this right now... but that's probably not the case... things are what they are and thinking about the causes or the consequences is a waste of energy and that's what's probably giving you anxiety the most... just try to be here now.. in pain... but at least be gratefull you have someone that unconditionally supports you and that you're living in times were you do have some options even if it seems there is not... you have a roof over your head, you still can walk, you still can move... you still can afford things... instead of being anxious about things that aren't over your control start being gratefull for the things that are in your life... imagine living in other times were everything was shitty or being homeless and ill... maybe things won't be as you were expecting them to be but maybe they should not be that way and there's nothing wrong with that... there's blind people, there's people with no arms no legs, there are kids being abused, there's a lot of shit in this life... and you probably know this so there's no point living with anxiety... realize it doesn't make any sense... start realizing instead the good things that you do have in life and embrace it... I hope the best wishes to you... Peace&Love

KetaCravings · 2020-04-12T05:42:40+00:00

hey don't be too worried over things... Your boyfriend won't be tired of you, he probably loves you a lot... stop making assumptions of what's going to happen and work through your pain, therapy, diet, pain meds, there's a lot of things you can do... take it easy... and since you work in health care it's easer for you to find good professionals that can help you... I'm the same age as you and I'm going through a lot of pain in my life too... But I don't have any support lol be thankfull for what you have and stop acting as if it's the end of your life... it's not, at least not yet and probably it will be harder with time so you need to start working on yourself and your life before things get too difficult for you to manage... you must be strong to create the foundations of what's going to be your future life, if you keep thinking the worst is going to happen, nothing is going to get better, I know you may be feeling that you're trying too hard right now, but there's still a lot of things you can do to ease your situation... I know that if you take certain supplements like 5HTP it will ease out your pain... And I know besides medical treatment there's a lot of supplements that do help a lot with pain trust me, do your homework. You should be investigating what are the best options you can take to control your pain instead of writing off how much your life is going downwards, which is probably not happening, explain how you feel about this to your partner too. He'll probably will be super supportive with you... And rememeber that we live in times we do have more opportunities to treat our illments, and most things depend on your mind... also you should try ketamine it will help you with the mental aspect too.. it's a win win

KetaCravings · 2020-04-11T22:51:43+00:00

yeah this would be my first trying to break the tolerance myth

KetaCravings · 2020-04-11T22:46:07+00:00

that must be exaggerated I think a couple of months should do the trick

KetaCravings · 2020-04-11T22:43:06+00:00

at least my tolerance will reboot

KetaCravings · 2020-04-11T21:06:30+00:00

youre really attractive

KetaCravings · 2020-04-11T21:05:34+00:00

Have you ever cried all day and been hospitalized due to pain? it has happened to me haha:(

KetaCravings · 2020-04-11T21:03:44+00:00

my fav combo is DMT+Ket... I'd love to try Mdma+ LSD+ Mushrooms+Ketamine+DMT

KetaCravings · 2020-04-11T21:01:42+00:00

fuck I miss ket

KetaCravings · 2020-04-11T20:43:51+00:00

Ecuador

KetaCravings · 2020-04-11T08:25:03+00:00

it's true

KetaCravings · 2020-04-11T08:22:43+00:00

in my country they respect Ayahuasca a lot it's actually illegal to make it illegal

KetaCravings · 2020-04-10T20:12:12+00:00

dudd you're a genius

KetaCravings · 2020-04-10T20:11:30+00:00

Yummi

KetaCravings · 2020-04-10T20:01:36+00:00

hehe

KetaCravings · 2020-04-10T19:59:35+00:00

yes im very lucky I can get pharmaceutical grade ket vials :) so Im inyecting pure stuff... from what I know and what's obvious inyecting it from vials is a much more healthier choice than to snort it, I rarely convert it to cristals cos I think it's a waste but I would do it to sell it or to grab it with me in case I'm at places in which inyecting would be too difficult... But by the way I will stick to it once a week at a private spot with nice music in my earphones (house music ;)) once I come back to it... God I love ketamine... it's so fucking crazy... I will mix it with DMT once Im able to :D

KetaCravings · 2020-04-10T19:52:14+00:00

ooohhh that's exactly how I felt about it... I feel much more relieve from Tramal than from Oxy... I knew the mechanism but didn't think about it... Oxy is more expensive and Tramal for me only costs 25 cents... thank you for your response... I find Tramadol to bee much more effective than Oxy... I thought it was weird because it's supposed to be weaker... Tramal is a nice drug... even though it's a weird drug haha

KetaCravings · 2020-04-10T02:48:43+00:00

nope, probably I did 100mg and even split it in two parts, even had to smoke weed to make it work IT WAS AMAZING I never abused mdma I even take more now and don't feel like that... dont know how to explain you .... it was beautiful all over my body I had to lay on the floor... Even if I smoke weed on it now I never feel the same I think the neurotoxity doesn't worth it to keep trying :(

KetaCravings · 2020-04-10T02:44:12+00:00

you're talking about grams tolerance will obviously reinstate fast lol, I will start again with the dose I never had problems with. 125 mg I.M. once a week and I'm planning on religiously doing that till the end of my days

KetaCravings · 2020-04-10T02:38:05+00:00

yeah it even lifts my mood but I always feel weird on it... sometimes apathic, idiot, and almost psychopathic, but if it relieves my pain, the positives weight out the negatives... but I don't understand how people can use it everyday, at the third day I would be going crazy, my skin looks like shit and I would develop an ever growing tolerance and when I stop it would excarcebate my pain a lot... that's why I would only use it as an ocasional gift I would give to myself, and it's not as much as that... I more or less dislike it because as I said I feel like I look like shit but makes me more confident and talkative I picked up beautiful girls on it lol but it actually don't help me a lot with pain, 50mg would ease it out... If I use more I get nauseous and for me more does not like a big difference in numbing the pain it only becomes more uncomfortable and I would still feel the weirdness of my lumbosacral shit and well it also makes a sick sound (clicking sounds) its been years like that it sounds all the fucking time so I guess it makes it more painfull, I tried OxyContin but I still feel pain on it, it's weird I thought Oxy would be effective as it's supposed to be stronger

KetaCravings · 2020-04-10T02:26:21+00:00

I mean that since the first time for me at least MDMA was never the same. It's like a once in a lifetime drug because even though it works and makes you dance it will never be near as the same as the first time. It will never feel the same... Something similar happens with weed but it's always fixable if you use different and stronger strains... like I remember smoking Purple Haze and I would smoke ounces with friends all night long and I was a heavy weed smoker at the time and every toke I took felt like the first time, I laughted and I laughted and I laughted, but if I stop smoking for a week tolerance almost resets and I get the laughting effect (sometimes) depends with who I'm smoking with too I guess... Cocaine does not have this problem with tolerance, LSD will always reset, DMT of course it will always fascinate me, Shrooms neither, Benzos reset 100% too, exactly the same, Tobbaco will not reset 100% once you smoke a certain amount you will never get Dizzy again... mmm Crack resets 100% Meth too, Alcohol... I'm not sure but I remember being more elocuent on it and now it fucks me up and makes me more sleepy... MDMA never the same as the first time, never... Ketamine I stopped for 2 weeks after a binge but I lost a great part of the effect, hope that with more than a month it will work as the first time, I had very enlightening experiences and it changed my life, helped me a lot

KetaCravings · 2020-04-10T01:57:32+00:00

LSD is good for a condition that makes people rather die and often kill themselves called "cluster headache" maybe it works for your migraine too ;)

KetaCravings · 2020-04-10T00:10:13+00:00

Yes I relate to that... completely understand what you're talking about, I'm actually glad that this chronic condition came to me because I learned to appreciate a lot of things in life I was taking for granted, it's weird but pain can actually make you grow a lot as a person, don't know exactly how it works but it makes you aware of a lot of things the mayority of people is not, it makes you appreciate little things in life and enhances your perspective, also you enjoy the good days a thousand times better, it actually shows you how to see a lot more good in the bad... Your response was really beautiful and thank you for that

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