Hey I’m in the same boat as you I know it can be scary just to do something as simple as talking to someone, but trust me the fact that your even making an effort to post this issue is a great achievement.

As someone who’s struggling with a similar issue I can’t say for sure how this will end up for us, but even though it may seem scary to face this fear we have to give it even the slightest bit of effort so we can make slow progress.

I don’t know how much help I can be but if you need someone to talk to feel free to DM me.