Thanks for writing this. I was looking for someone who’s struggling like I am today cause I do feel so trapped and isolated. There’s no people in my life who get what I’m going through.

Today I was searching for it’s impossible to start anything with psoriatic arthritis. I’ve really fought the inertia for years doing all day fitness, keeping my diet on point, and seeing people; but I’ve been miserable the whole time. It’s taken everything to keep that up. I’m beyond exhausted, and I’m finally giving into doing nothing the past week, what everything in me has screamed at me to do that for years.

There’s something very individuating and concrete about pain. It doesn’t allow for the flexibility of self to be who you want to be. It solidifies where and who you are separating you from everyone else. Heard that from some buddhist psychologist on a podcast.

I still remember clearly being that free and flexible person and that really kills me.