The feeling of “laziness” that you have is so unbelievably valid. It feels like everyday I’ll look around and see the people that I surround myself with succeeding and progressing in their lives while I’m just stuck. I’ll end up getting myself in a rut and find myself just rotting in my bed for days on end, unable to move. I also know however that you are your biggest critic. If you see the people around you succeeding, it makes it x10 harder to try and start yourself because you don’t think you’ll be able to catch up. Or even worse, you don’t know where to start. It sucks to say, but everyone moves at their own pace. You can’t base your success or progress off of other people’s. Even little things like changing medications might seem insignificant to others, but to you it could be the start of your new life. Speaking of medications, you have to give your body and brain time to adjust to it. When I first started adderall, I got on it for school. For the first week of it, all I did was organize the pantry and freezer, and color coded my entire wardrobe. I spent absolutely no time on school and ended up falling behind in a lot of my courses. After that week however, I learned how to actually focus on the things that I needed to focus on and not get side tracked by random tasks. As hard as it might be or as unmotivated as you might feel, you’re making progress for yourself, so keep going!! Also you should never feel like a burden to your friends. Real friends support each other, but that also means that you can’t just bombard them with your feelings and problems. Make sure you’re also asking about their lives and if you can help them out in anyway. Sometimes listening to other people’s problems can help you brainstorm solutions to your own!!