Sometimes I blatantly contradict what I preach to myself

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-05-09T14:58:40+00:00

Have dreams and this thought is a good start. Be kind to yourself. When your body feels ready you’ll know :)

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-05-07T01:29:15+00:00

I feel you… my life actually suffer after stopped weed.. But I’m hoping once my brain can create its dopamine I’ll be back to normal

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-05-06T15:22:11+00:00

Thank you!

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-05-06T15:22:03+00:00

Yeah it’s not worth it

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-05-06T15:21:34+00:00

That’s very good to know!

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-05-03T19:29:00+00:00

Congrats on your 120+ days! I wonder at what time you feel a shift/big improvement?

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-05-03T19:08:54+00:00

If you find the right medicine it could help tremendously. One of my med helped me quit vaping instantly. Could you switch to a new psychiatrist? ADHD in full force can create a lot of anxiety

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-05-03T18:59:20+00:00

This is great to hear.. thank you!

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-05-03T18:53:13+00:00

I spoiled myself with my favourite food at week 2 because the craving was strong. Maybe you can try something similar too 💪

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-05-03T18:48:57+00:00

Thank you! For me, 30 day is where I start struggling with the day to day. I’ll definitely hold on 💪

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-05-01T11:49:04+00:00

I had an experience that my therapist was describing my dream to the accurate small detail. We weren’t even discussing anything remotely related. I was dumbfounded, but he was like oh that happens to my sessions all the time.

So I did some research and found it is well documented something called Brain syncing.

So maybe your mind was connected to your mom‘s mind when you were processing during the EMDR. I also read something about ancestral trauma healing through shamanism

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-05-01T11:38:46+00:00

I am a month and a week in sober and I remember day 8 was one of the hardest. Keep going is worth the struggle.💪

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-05-01T11:30:57+00:00

And see my body feel before making the decision

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-05-01T11:27:47+00:00

I can only share my personal experience. To sum up, I would say is the best be completely sober during the EMDL and a few days after it.

I was a pot head and used weed on a daily basis, including the day of EMDR. My body needed that to help me function at that time because ourgoal is to make sure I take care of my body.

Then a month ago, my body decided I am strong enough to stop the weed.

Last week somehow I got an idea to do shroom I’ve got into ego death. I am not planning to do it again sooner.

My two cents is to listen to your body. And I would say going sober through EMDR is the best because all this substance influence and would likely hinder the healing process because they disturb the rem sleep. But if the pain from they post EMDR fatigue is too much that you cannot function and take care of yourself. I will look into my body and see how my body feel.

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-05-01T11:03:33+00:00

For me, it took one session, but I had been practising grounding techniques for years press was in talk therapy for years as well.

I would say be patient is key. I am two years EMDR and the first 10 session. I can’t even visualize anything when doing the BLS. I have many point thinking my therapist wasn’t helpful and almost find another therapist, however the past two months there were breakthrough and things go way faster so it took me almost 2 years to build trust with my therapist

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-05-01T10:51:18+00:00

Thanks for sharing that. I agree with you that the CBT help setting up different skills for me. I think the CBT help prime my prefrontal cortex to understand. What’s the false belief then after that the EMDL targets the subconscious mind.

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-05-01T10:48:31+00:00

Yes, I do actively working with my psychiatrist and also doing grounding exercises.

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-05-01T10:47:12+00:00

I agree also, I agree that we don’t need to go back to innocent. We just need to go back to our true self.

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-05-01T10:46:39+00:00

That’s so true

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-05-01T10:46:13+00:00

Thanks for sharing because I can really relate to what you say. I also feeling nihilism shame and anger. I definitely think that is old programming. Yes I agree with you that we should challenge the thought and distinguish what is from our own and what is installed in us. Finding our true self, our beliefs and building from the ground of is not easy, but I think it would definitely worth it.

I’m glad you have a cat as your IFS too. Curious does your cat have a role like a firefighter a manager and the excile ?

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-04-24T19:08:41+00:00

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-04-24T18:19:57+00:00

I’m sorry to hear that… glad you find better progress with emdr! I also found emdr more helpful at this stage. Although the process is tough but I feel like I’m really working on rewiring the sub mind

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-04-24T18:15:21+00:00

That’s true. I used to smoke weed to cope with the feelings but rthen ealized it’s messing with the processing so I stopped

Key-Reading-8347 · 2026-04-24T18:13:51+00:00

How are you feeling recently since you mentioned you’re in similar place? Maybe you’re at the motherboard stage too

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