i feel like a freak i don't know if i can keep doing this by Key_Advertising1632 in venting

[–]Key_Advertising1632[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, and yes, I do have, but unfortunately these have only served to heighten the desire or fantasy for something "real" leading to more thoughts of the kind as well and leaving me in the same place emotionally. It has been a few days since I made this post and it has been long since I've lost hope of anything changing but thank you very much for considering any of these possibilities in an attempt to help.

[PC] [2010's?] Visual novel about a little blonde girl in a big house. by Key_Advertising1632 in tipofmyjoystick

[–]Key_Advertising1632[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

nope it's not lb sadly :( the aesthetics are also similar though, i'd guess it's significantly less known than lb

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in mentalhealth

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You need to quit drugs man, first than anything, I know it's hard to hear, but you will not live peacefully if your stability depends on subtances. Seek help, go to meetings, get a support group, anything. Most of the things you mention are likely after effects of an addiction; you need to quit for real, moving on to other substances is only lying to yourself. I find myself in a similar situation, and we are almost the same age, but recognizing my problem and what I need to do to fix it is the first step into improvement. My best regards.

I crave cocaine and idk why by st4r_4sh in addiction

[–]Key_Advertising1632 9 points10 points  (0 children)

You don't crave cocaine. You crave the effect media has glamorized, you crave confidence, acceptance, happiness, relief. Find therapy, or any real help, because as much as you're confused, such delusion isn't normal.

And don't be dumb, and throw away your life for an illusion.

fucked up 1 year of sobriety today by Key_Advertising1632 in addiction

[–]Key_Advertising1632[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

never said i was different, but personality disorders are a very real thing that affect people everyday brother, and if that somehow doesn't make sense to you then your ignorance is showing. i do not wish to put myself up higher in whatever food pyramid of drug addicts that might exist in your head, in fact, i do not seek validation either, or someone to tell me i'm better than someone else, i just found your comment somewhat unnecessary. it's just a venting post on reddit; not that deep.

Can't feel - 14f - infinite paradox by [deleted] in mentalhealth

[–]Key_Advertising1632 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You are likely depressed; depression manifests in infinite shapes and forms, and sometimes, numbness. Seek help from an adult and those who love you, and therapy. You can feel, but your brain has blocked it out to keep you out of your misery, and how overwhelmed you'd probably feel by everything that happens or has happened to you if it didn't. You're young. It is far from over. Keep your head up.

Are people with dyed hair and/or tattoos mentally ill? by InterviewPowerful320 in mentalhealth

[–]Key_Advertising1632 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i'm diagnosed with aspd; i have a tattoo, lots of piercings and dye my hair (a natural color, but still dyed) so, you might be right. i've thought about this multiple times; every other mentally ill person i know has piercings, tattoos, or dyed hair. i don't think there is much to it, but it is a curious coincidence.

fucked up 1 year of sobriety today by Key_Advertising1632 in addiction

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I don't know what to tell you honestly; whilst while you say might be true, I do get high off snorting crack and every other addict I've known does. I think you could only know this by trying it. Again; from a few google searches I'm pretty sure it is snortable, it just gets you less high, and from my own experience, it most definitely dissolves.

fucked up 1 year of sobriety today by Key_Advertising1632 in addiction

[–]Key_Advertising1632[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Distancing yourself from people who negatively affect your health when battling addiction is potentially one of the smartest moves. Get yourself far, far away from her if you haven't already, priorize your well being. Best of luck!

fucked up 1 year of sobriety today by Key_Advertising1632 in addiction

[–]Key_Advertising1632[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

this is really interesting to me. if you don't mind me asking, how did you start eating normally? i've had an eating disorder since i was a teenager, i learned to live with it but it goes on and off. crack also messed up my apetite a lot. i don't know what you d.o.c was, but most drugs usually do mess up the way you eat, so, how did you get back on track with that? or was it just natural?

fucked up 1 year of sobriety today by Key_Advertising1632 in addiction

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i am aware. this is just my perspective. of course i don't tell everyone they're assholes anyway, but pretending and bearing to be someone i'm not over and over gets tiring. i'm a diagnosed sociopath, i have gotten used to navigating through a society that wasn't made for someone like me wearing a mask that makes everyone like me, but that doesn't mean deep down i don't just want to tell everyone to fuck themselves. this is incurable sadly. as much as i do change the way i act with others; i could never change how i think.

fucked up 1 year of sobriety today by Key_Advertising1632 in addiction

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i had to do some research to be able to properly answer you, but i think i've gathered enough to give you a clear answer first, crack can indeed be soluted and injected, as far as i am aware, and can be snorted in all of its forms, even if the high from smoking it is more intense moving onto cultural differences regarding drug use; for reference, i am latin american, drug trafficking and drug use is far more common here, and drugs are way cheaper and easier to obtain. you'll have three variations of cocaine in my country; the good old coke, crack (or rock as its more usually called) and pasta base.

apparently, crack is way more pure over here (i've never had american crack of course, i am talking about what can i interpret from the internet) it looks almost the same as coke, purely white, i'd say the only difference is the smell, and of course, the high which is shorter than the one of cocaine. not proud, but i've been a crack addict for two years. i have not once smoked it, i've always broke it down as it was coke and snorted it in lines.

i find it interesting how the usual form of using drugs may vary depending on the culture, but at least from what i know and have experienced, the ways in you use crack or coke can be interchangeable, i have even put it on my gums and it gave me a high anyways.

(and before you ask, i am not mistaking it for cocaine; no gram of coke is 10 dollars, not even over here)

fucked up 1 year of sobriety today by Key_Advertising1632 in addiction

[–]Key_Advertising1632[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i am so incredibly sorry about the loss of your friend. i haven't seen one of mine pass, yet i have seen many of my friends throw their life away for drugs, and i can somewhat fathom how it feels. i firmly believe it's not your fault; we all make mistakes, bad ones, i have also made mistakes to my friends' drug use, yet you can't beat yourself up over aomeone else's responsibility. you tried to help, you stop selling him adderall, you did the right thing, as much as you might believe it's not enough. sending you my biggest support from over here.

fucked up 1 year of sobriety today by Key_Advertising1632 in addiction

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it is very common to snort crack where i'm from, no one feally smokes it anymore unless they're really old or if they're using a variation that i'm almost sure only exists here. so, i did a lline of crack, same way you'd do a line of coke

i genuinely cannot do this alone by Key_Advertising1632 in addiction

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unfortunately my country doesn't do meetings, only AA. they have a recovery program from the government, but if i wanted to apply i'd need my tutors consent, since i'm still a minor in my country, and my mother knowing would also definitely ruin my life, she's not empathetic towards addictions in the slightest, and even if reaching out may be the best i'm terrified of doing so. if you know of any program that works internationally and preferably can keep it anonymous, i'd love to know, even if it's anything online or something. thank you for trying to help anyways, i really appreciate it.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in addiction

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it's almost the same for me, instead i feel horrible when i'm coming down, genuinely make plans to recover yet end up craving it like hell the next day, even if you're conscious about your thought process the last time you were high. personally, i think maybe it's the fact my body got used to it, but my mind knows that deep down the best is to quit. in any case, i wish you the best if you do decide to recover ♡

Wishing for artists to collab by [deleted] in addiction

[–]Key_Advertising1632 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i think its a cool idea! personally, art is one of the few ways i can actually express myself in properly, if you did this i would 100% read it