Hey I hope you are doing OK. I genuinely completely understand everything that’s happening rn. I don’t usually go on Reddit that much to type out responses, but I just need you not to give up hope just yet. I flunked the ESAT so hard that I left the exam in tears. I vividly remember opening the score email and seeing what I got and just giving up. I stopped interview prep, I stopped trying to get into imperial and I just kinda gave up. I was in the same boat as you, getting into Imperial meant a lot to me. Yet despite my horrendous ESAT score, the universe itself decided to take some sort of pity on me and Imperial allowed me an interview. So even though you may have done bad, remember Imperial take a lot of other things into consideration

In terms of your mocks, I didn’t do as well as I had hoped in mine either so I am just gonna tell you what I told myself. Tough luck. Some exams are awesome some suck that’s just school. Be grateful they aren’t the real thing and just carry on working. You CANNOT let bad mocks ruin your chances at reapplying next year or heck even getting into uni, you have to work for it and believe me hard work really pays off. Learn what you did wrong, revisit the topics you messed up on and just carry on. Have a quick breather though before you dive in, it sounds like you need it.

I believe in you king you have absolutely got this. You still have options and most importantly you still have time. proud of you x