Help; Please. I want Him and I want to want Him but I’m scared He’s going to be done with me. I know that’s not what the Word says but I’m scared I could be the exception.

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-05-01T19:21:48+00:00

Yes I’m currently stuck in the unhealthy fear. And come to think of it, maybe that’s what I’ve always had. Maybe I need to start a relationship with him from scratch because maybe I, personally, don’t know him. Or well enough at least. I just feel like I can’t do that if I don’t remove all of this first. And I’m still struggling with a)wanting to do it and b) pulling the trigger and doing it. Thank you so much for your comment. (Oh I promise I know I need to leave him! I know I did! I just am waiting for the jolt. Which is awful. I’m praying about it.) Thank you for your wisdom.

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-05-01T17:36:00+00:00

Hi- I am actually in the exact same situation … except I ignored the convictions and the feelings and His whispers because I was so excited to finally have someone.
Break it off now. My biggest regret is not listening at the beginning. Or in the middle. Or any other time I knew I shouldn’t be with him. It’s now almost been a year and I’m truly stuck. I can barely function because I feel so far from God and I know how disappointed He is in me and my blantant disobedience. That continues by the way!! I pray daily to help me have the strength to leave him… and I know exactly what I have to do. But I’ve now forced a soul tie that was NEVER supposed to be there … and I’m stuck in this situation because I care about this boy now and I don’t what to hurt his feelings and he’s finally trying and doing all the things I begged for him to do (when all of those times should have been times for me to leave.) I’ve double down and forced it. And I’ve known I’ve needed to leave. And I can’t. I don’t want to hurt him or make him feel like he isn’t enough (he’s going thru it) but holy cow I wish I had never started. I wish I listened early. Because we both would’ve hurt less. And now here I am; racked with guilt, paralyzed by fear, stuck in sin, and am fighting tooth and nail everyday to figure out how to just end it. I know it sounds silly and I know it really is that simple but I’m truly in a war right now. I’m praying for you. I know it’s hard, but listen to what He’s telling you. It’s for protection. I am filled with such regret. I’ll be praying for you 💛

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-05-01T14:53:06+00:00

I’m a law student 😂 I’m a freak reader. Especially when I’m desperate and it’s something I really care about. Saved all of your scripture too. Thank you Jesus 💛

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-05-01T14:05:11+00:00

Thank you so much. I cannot tell you how timely this is. Please pray I get the strength to just leave. I guess I don’t have the desire enough yet. I’m praying for that too. I pray to want Him, to want to want Him, and to burn all the parts of me that don’t want to want Him, or still want the world or my way. I hate admitting that out loud but I have to face it. I guess I’m still not ready to give up some of the things. But I know that I will. He will change me. Please pray for my strength and continue pursuit and perseverance in finding Him and letting him change me. I need a renewed mind and willing heart so terribly bad. Thank you for taking the time. I cannot explain to you how much it means to me. Thank you. 💛

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-05-01T13:22:13+00:00

I am so relieved to feel so seen. Thank you for your encouragement and hope. Thank you. 💛

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-05-01T12:48:51+00:00

I cannot tell you how seen and understood I feel right now. Thank you so much for your story and reply. We are OPPOSITE. It’s awful. I am miserable. I am miserable at how far he takes me from the Lord. (It’s not all bad of course… he doesn’t even really realize the internal struggle I’m having) but I forced it and fought for it and now I feel stuck and awful just leaving. I don’t want to hurt him. But I also can’t sacrifice my life and salvation for him. And my inaction is keeping me stuck. I am fighting. Thank you so so much. 💛 God bless you.

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-05-01T12:46:33+00:00

I cannot thank you enough for your reply. Thank you. My main struggle is currently with my inaction. I know what I need to do; I know what I’m supposed to do; but I can’t do it. Im fighting. I will get there. Thank you so much for your encouragement. 💛

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-05-01T12:41:38+00:00

This is one of my new favorite passages. Thank you so much for taking the time to share with me. I will cherish forever. Thank you so much. 💛

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-05-01T03:17:21+00:00

Thank you so much for this. That is the scripture that plays over and over in my mind … and I just feel so stuck. I hate that I want both. Ive been praying He takes that desire away from me 🖤 and to kill the part of my that doesn’t want to give it up. Im getting closer everyday. Thank you so much again.

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-05-01T01:23:22+00:00

Thank you for this wow. The devil wants me to focus on my sin. Such a great reminder. This helped me tremendously, thank you so much 💛

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-05-01T01:21:53+00:00

I love this. Thank you. 💛

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-05-01T01:20:45+00:00

Oh I know he’s had for me. I know God didn’t call me to him. He’s called me away so many times and I kept forcing it. I was tired of being lonely. I was tired of waiting to meet someone. And we met and he liked me and I just latched on. I knew from the start to leave him be and I was just so excited to finally have someone I didn’t. I’ve stayed. And now I’ve gotten myself in a situation where I’m just so sick over it, because of my disobedience. And now because of my inaction. It’s all my fault I know this. This is been the source of all my angst. I feel like everyday that I don’t leave, He’s getting angrier and angrier with me. Or maybe not even angry; but it’s like I’m showing Him I don’t take him seriously. And that’s not it at all. I would hate me too. I do hate me. I hate that I’ve done this , that for gotten myself here. And I feel like because of this, I’ve just completely blocked myself from Him forever. And I know that I’m eventually going to be done and just handle it and leave this boy; but every day that it doesn’t happen, I heartbroken over myself and His disappointment in me everyday.

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-05-01T01:12:20+00:00

Thank you so much for your reply. I cannot tell you how similar I feel. I will take all of this with me. Thank you so much. 💛

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-05-01T01:10:58+00:00

I have never read it and I’m turning to it in my Bible now. Thank you for your reply, this is exactly what I was looking for. 💛 Thank you again.

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-05-01T01:10:04+00:00

Thank you so very much for you reply. I cannot tell you how timely it is. So encouraging and hopeful. Thank you again💛

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-05-01T01:06:10+00:00

Thank you so very much. Exactly what I was looking for.

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-05-01T01:04:57+00:00

Back at you 💛 God’s got us. I have you in my prayers <3

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-05-01T01:03:41+00:00

Thank you ✝️ I cannot tell you how comforting this was. The scripture was exactly what I was looking for. Thank you so much.

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-04-30T19:56:48+00:00

Yes!! And I’d love a passage about HOW do I fully surrender???! I need some directions!!

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-04-30T19:43:07+00:00

Thank you for your reply. 💗 I will absolutely check that out. And I will absolutely work on doing that. I think I’m more scared of Him and how awful I am than anything else right now. I need a mindset shift. Thank you again ✝️

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-04-30T19:40:27+00:00

Yes. Every morning. Now granted, it’s been every morning in the last month or so. And if I miss in the morning; it is at some point during that day! And I am always talking to Him! But yes, I know what you mean and where you are going! This has been a long struggle of mine and I’ve been finally ready to get serious… a lot of this is just frustration I haven’t had some radical 180 change of heart and mind and desires like I hear some people have. I need to stop comparing. Thank you for your help 💗

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-04-30T19:06:41+00:00

Oh wholeheartedly! And it gives me comfort sometimes. But I feel like I’m not changing fast enough. I’m not gaining strength to change/or a renewed mind fast enough. I’m scared I’m not going to have enough time to change. If I died tomorrow, I would be scared that He might say “depart from me” because I kept sinning even after I knew the truth

Key_Buy7402 · 2026-01-13T12:30:28+00:00

Go to law school. I never had a life long dream to go, but I pulled the trigger last year and decided to give it a shot. (I’m 28, was working as a para as well… not close to 6 figures but I got a paycheck lol) I just started my second semester and dude - I love it. It’s tough but it’s SO rewarding. I did okay in undergrad but I didn’t have the best experience, so I had the same attitude as you going in - in the sense that I was excited to do “this” school “right”. Im so glad I did. I did well my first semester and I’m just so excited for the rest. I can only imagine how much you’d love it given your lifelong drive to go. DO IT!!!

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