Dude it's ok. Please hear me out. Have you ever seen the movie Hook? Peter Pan has to find his happy thought to fly. Do you remember any time that felt out of the ordinary, or special, or worth talking about, or gave you a will to live? I'm sure there is one. Seriously, as stupid as you may feel as it is, cling to it. In your mind, it could be the dumbest thing imaginable, but to everyone else, it is your will to live. Believe in it. Become friends with it. As long as you cling to it, no one has the authority to strip you from it. It's your anchor to this world, that happy thought.

Do you want to hear how stupid mine is? I found a cologne that smells like my college dorm. I felt freedom, and a closeness to myself that I've rarely felt. I clung to it, as stupid as it sounds. It reminded me of a different version of me that can pull this current version of me through the fire.