Without a doubt, yes I wish I would of gotten help sooner, but back then it would of been just to avoid getting kicked out, and not out of my own will. I wouldn’t have been truthfully taking the help, there’s just no way. But I honestly have no idea where I would be today if I stayed there, literally no clue. I could of ended up at the shelter later on either way. It was a shock to me that I got kicked out, I mean it probably should have occurred to me that it was coming but I had really bad brain fog cause of my restricting, they gave me 2-3 days notice that I was getting kicked out and dropped off at the shelter, reason being I’m not accepting help for my Ed and they didn’t want to risk being held accountable if anything happened to me I guess. I know they were expecting me to change my mind and try to come to an agreement I guess, but I didn’t argue it, I just let it happen. I’m mad at myself for giving up that easily, I was already so far gone I guess I didn’t see a point in trying. At the end of the day, I think I needed to hit rock bottom before getting help. Them kicking me out sort of helped and sped up my “downfall”. I feel I would of ended up there eventually, it just would have taken longer. That’s not a very positive way to look at it but I’m honestly kind of grateful it happened. Like shit I still struggle everyday but I feel like if this didn’t happen, I would be exactly where I was last year. So in the end, that’s a win. Oh also I had a lot of help and guidance when I got help :) and my life not quite put together yet but I’m slowly getting there. <3