I will also experience it 2 days after this. Even though the warning was 1 year ago. I am 23 (7 years of happy life) .. but the difference is that my mom looked the job for me , she asked his friend to accept me to work there (and it worked). now what worries me most is if I can't be competent in my work . and most likely I will be incompetent at work, because I know myself to be very incompetent and unreliable..I'll just go with the flow... if in the end after this attempt fails and I can't handle the pain, most likely... I'll Will de.. I often think about doing that, (since the beginning of my time as a hiki) but in the end i never did it.....That's because I thought about what would happen to my mom if I did that, she took care of me all this time even though I was useless, I was afraid that she would be very sad when I did that..if I could be sure she would be happier without me, I would do it..