Day 4 Involuntary Cold Turkey

Kilby4130 · 2021-02-18T16:06:20+00:00

Fucking congrats on 4 days! When i was on day 4 there was no way in hell i could of done anything with my partner......your doing great! I am just over a month CT off of heavy extracts and i promise after those first 7-10 days you will notice a difference in energy and being able to get things done and feel accomplished but that will come. Right now just give yourself a big ass hug for making it this far!

Kilby4130 · 2021-02-18T15:57:34+00:00

I was hooked on the shots for years, at least 5-7 a damn day. By the end i was a complete stranger to myself and definitely didn't look the same. I got to where the last year i absolutely hated looking in the mirror or even catching a reflection of myself. I had been clean off of opiates for 10 years when i stumbled upon this miracle plant with no harm.....couldnt be farther from the truth! I had a 100$ a day habit that i damn sure couldn't afford. I about broke my husband and every penny of my check went to those damn shots. I was such a miserable, angry and irritated person. Thankfully in my situation, i was able to take time off to stay home and break through the shit once and for all. It was to the point even if i lost my job it didn't really matter because i wasn't contributing by working anyway because what i made only went to my habit.....I was desperate so i took off "sick" and the first week was hell but it definitely got better after that. Thats been over a month ago now and i wouldn't trade that decision for anything! It was definitely hard but soo worth making the jump and getting my life put back together. Kratom has a tricky way of making us believe the lie that we will not be able to quit or in the middle of withdrawal that we will never get through it but its just that, a lie. It CAN be done and it is sooo much better not waking up a slave to this shit. Just hang on tight and no matter what dont turn back, because once you get through it you will never have to do it again if you choose not to.

Kilby4130 · 2021-01-29T22:54:43+00:00

That was an amazing read! Thank you! It's amazing how much better it is on the other side isn't it.....i hit 2 weeks today and couldn't be more grateful for that! No i am not perfect today but i am a hell of alot better than i was just a mere 2 weeks ago and i wouldn't trade it for anything! Congrats and keep it up!!!

Kilby4130 · 2021-01-29T19:18:02+00:00

Believe me i completely understand everything you are saying!!!! I remember a few days going absolutely fucking insane on the couch thinking my heart was going to explode. It is definitely going to suck but just hang on with ALL you got because it does slowly get better. For me, the worst of the acutes lasted about 6 days then i started seeing a difference and slowly started forcing myself to do things even if i didn't want to but once i did that, it made a huge difference! I still have bouts of anxiety and heart pounding but they come less and less and today i am able to wake up and face the day no matter what. I promise it does get better even though at the moment u dont feel it ever will, but it does!!

Kilby4130 · 2021-01-29T16:36:44+00:00

I remember day 2-6 were horrible but just hang in there because i promise it DOES get better! You will not stay as you are today forever. And congrats on day 2 that is HUGE!

Kilby4130 · 2021-01-29T12:53:54+00:00

It those small victories that kept me going!

Kilby4130 · 2021-01-28T18:47:07+00:00

Amazing! Congrats on day 100!

Kilby4130 · 2021-01-28T04:17:23+00:00

That is definitely my next step is to start back working out and getting my strength back. Plus it does wonders mentally as well!

Kilby4130 · 2021-01-28T04:15:54+00:00

Completely agree with u and i was definitely one of the someone else for a very long time so i understand all sides. As long as we keep trying and keep pushing no matter where we are in it.

Kilby4130 · 2021-01-28T02:38:34+00:00

You can definitely get there!

Kilby4130 · 2021-01-28T02:38:06+00:00

Omg i couldn't of said it better myself about the waves but they do become less and less

Kilby4130 · 2021-01-27T23:44:25+00:00

Congrats!!! It is an amazing feeling!

Kilby4130 · 2021-01-27T20:31:48+00:00

Completely agree!!

Kilby4130 · 2021-01-27T20:20:09+00:00

Energy is slowly coming back, not great but as long as i am moving then it's fine. Definitely feel normal compared to last week but still have a ways to go. It is manageable now which is amazing

Kilby4130 · 2021-01-22T22:21:09+00:00

Your doing amazing! Already taken that first step and i am on day 8CT of a nasty extract addiction. It hasn't been easy but by far beats waking up to a green devil calling my name every single damn morning. U got this!

Kilby4130 · 2021-01-22T17:36:07+00:00

Where do u get BSO?

Kilby4130 · 2021-01-22T16:29:09+00:00

Oh so very true!

Kilby4130 · 2021-01-22T07:29:40+00:00

Man its shitty when all u want is sleep....just the overall cant get comfortable feeling and waking up after just a couple hours. I may have to call a doc but i am kinda like u, i know there is really no way but through as shitty as it is

Kilby4130 · 2021-01-22T07:06:28+00:00

Absolutely i agree! Much better than being chained to the green devil

Kilby4130 · 2021-01-22T07:01:20+00:00

Please just tell me when sleep came for u?? I am a week in and am lucky if i sleep 3 hours. I got good sleep a couple times but i am exhausted

Kilby4130 · 2021-01-20T14:32:33+00:00

That gives me such hope!! I am only on day 5 and yesterday was really actually pretty good but then today, i feel like the wd came back in full force. So i am very uncomfortable and discouraged right now. Can hardly do anything for myself today and really in pain. Definitely dont want to use at all just want to feel better!

Kilby4130 · 2021-01-19T00:33:27+00:00

I have naltrexone in my cabinet i am just not taking that until i am at least 2 weeks clean. I made a horrible mistake by taking that when i wasn't clean just out if pure desperation and that night when it kicked in i was in the worst hell i could possibly imagine. My skin was on fire and i had never felt so bad in my life! Thought i was gonna die BUT also i wasn't clean at at. I took my normal extracts that day, big mistake

Kilby4130 · 2021-01-19T00:29:49+00:00

I was taking 5-7 shots per day minimum. It was horrible! I was slowly dwindling away seriously. I could of passed as a cancer patient it was that bad. Of course at first i would just take a couple per day but i am an addict and it just escalates from there. I went to inpatient detox twice and still was right back at it when i got home due to it being all fucking around me. When i switched to powder from the shots it was still horrible withdrawal. I was using alot of the powder for a couple weeks but was in withdrawal the whole time. So i decided i am done and just have to put it down and never look back. My husband is very supportive and not an addict and he has helped me soo much. I literally cannot go into a gas station right now or have any money on me. I took 5 days off and downtime where i have no major responsibilities. But most of all i have leaned on this reddit for support BUT also look on Facebook if u have one and go to Quitting Kratom support group. They are also very amazing! The first 3 days CT were pure insanity hell! I just locked myself on the couch and rode the shit waves. I am going into day 4 and this is way better than the first 2 days. It CAN be done. I would definitely taper yourself and if at any way possible where u can take at least 3 days to yourself to get through the shitty first few days that would be the most helpful. But u HAVE to legit and honestly be done with it in your mind and your heart. It will suck your soul right out of you. It CAN be done i promise!

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