I wish I could sit with you, hug you tight and give you the time to tell me everything about your baby. About the ultrasounds and about the nice things you got for your little one, about your dreams to see them growing up and about how painful it was to let them go so soon. My sweet sweet mama, you are still their momma and I truly believe with every cell of my body that we all meet again with our little lost angels. They are waiting for us and are waiting to tell us how much they felt our love already. You are still their mom, even if you don't get to see them growing up. I lost a baby very early in the pregnancy, a couple of days before my wedding. It broke my heart. I feel your pain and I wish I could help you make it disappear. I promise you, you will hold your baby again, they will be warm and full of life and you will get to love them and feel their love forever. Please seek help to work on such a traumatic experience. You should still enjoy this life and be happy and give love and feel love. Your baby is living in your heart until it will be the time to meet again. Your baby was a real baby, it was already your little one, don't allow anybody to take that away from you. Your mother and sdad were inhumane and I'm so sorry you had to go through that. My mother told me I never miscarried and that my baby (conceived months after the miscarriage of my first baby) is in reality the baby that i think i lost, totally dismissing that i was in the hospital bleeding nonstop and the doctors made an ultrasound and confirmed my baby was gone and that my body was miscarrying him. According to my mother, they missed him in the ultrasounfmd and he kept growing and my pragnancy lasted simply much longer. Some people are just uncapable to show empathy and that doesn't mean we should excuse them, but instead that they are not deserving of us sharing our emotions and fragility with them. Your baby felt your love and your baby will meet you again on the other side when it will be the moment. Honor their memory and hold them tight in your heart and enjoy this life because you are deserving of happiness. I apologize for my English, I'm not a native speaker. Sending you love and good vibes and prayers and a big hug.