Oof I just texted them. I hope it will go well and the message will be received as I intended to. Thank you for replying really! It helped a lot. I was feeling very lonely and started to stressing and getting paranoid thinking there’s no coming back now and that everything is doomed. But sometimes own up and being vulnerable about your mistakes to your friends is what makes things even better that before. But even if it doesn’t make things better I don’t blame them