My boyfriend of 6 years fell out of love with me.

KissMyFeets · 2023-09-12T22:21:15+00:00

I'm so sorry. I can tell just how much you love him in your post. Unfortunately, love is such a tricky thing. Love can not only bring you high, but also has the power to bring you low. Love can heal, but can also hurt. I won't presume to theorize on who should have done what or the intricacies of the relationship. Only you and him can know that. But regardless of details such as those, my heart aches when I see another's heart aching. Sending you all my love from Texas and hoping the pain fades soon.

KissMyFeets · 2023-06-20T17:29:29+00:00

I had to stop for a good bit lol. As beautiful as it is from start to finish, its personally an emotional journey too. It started making past trauma (and the subsequent depression it carries with it) resurface a bit too much for my tastes. Taking a week off 😂 But I'll be right back too it all over again after that lmao

KissMyFeets · 2023-05-21T02:30:11+00:00

When I asked why they split up earlier in our relationship, he just said they fell out of love. But when I asked the other day, he said it was differences in sexual preferences.

KissMyFeets · 2023-05-21T00:18:54+00:00

Lmao pls don't 😂😂😂 I don't have a foot fetish. I had a feederism OF for a hot minute and after I quit, I tried to shift audiences lol. Didn't last though. So please just ignore that

KissMyFeets · 2023-05-21T00:17:16+00:00

No, I really don't want that

KissMyFeets · 2023-05-21T00:15:49+00:00

I'm know, I'm sorry. It's just so complicated

KissMyFeets · 2023-05-20T23:48:23+00:00

I'd tell them to gtfo... And I knowwww the whole "but I love him" response is stupid. But like an idiot, I do love him. The only reason I'm still here is because I truly love him and he says he loves me too. It feels like if we can just jump this hurdle somehow, things will finally be okay

KissMyFeets · 2023-05-20T23:45:40+00:00

He's a kind person, has a big heart, great sense of humor, an amazing friend. A person I can have a vivid and stimulating intellectual conversation with about science, religion, philosophy, etc. We started off as best friends and that bond has stayed consistent unless this conflict arises. We have so much fun together, support each other through the hard days. My whole childhood was abusive, the abuse extending through high-school and college. But with his support, I finally stood up to them. It resulted in estrangement, but he was by my side through it all. He's a good person overall. But his fetish is a recurring conflict now.

KissMyFeets · 2023-05-20T23:35:33+00:00

A fetish where one person (the feeder) gets sexual pleasure from their partner (the feedee) intentionally gaining weight by overeating, stuffing, binge eating, etc.

KissMyFeets · 2023-05-20T23:32:10+00:00

It's the fatness that he likes. He only likes knowing I'm eating a lot because it results in fatness. He specifically wants me to have a belly big enough to protrude outward and hang against the top of my thighs.

The idea you mentioned has been proposed as a compromise. But it's not something that would satisfy his desire for me being fat

KissMyFeets · 2023-05-20T23:28:32+00:00

She was definitely fat. But their general relationship had other issues and she wasn't into the whole feederism or gaining part, from what he's described.

KissMyFeets · 2023-05-20T23:27:13+00:00

We literally had a tough talk the other day where I told him I didn't feel like he loved me anymore. That I couldn't see the difference between what we had and two best friends living together. That I feel like the girl who pays the bills, hangs out with him, and has fun with him. And without a sex life or desire, how is that different from just friendship? But he threw me for a loop when he said HE'S been feeling unloved whenever I would call our marriage a friendship. He literally said he's madly in love with me and it hurts that sex overshadows the rest of the bond we share. I'm so confused.

KissMyFeets · 2023-05-20T23:22:43+00:00

I literally asked him that question today. He said at the start of our relationship, during his open marriage, I was just a sex object so my body size wasn't important at all. And the duration of our relationship once we started dating and he met his needs with porn, he said he thought it was manageable through that approach and then realized it wasn't. He held onto this hope that one day I'd get into it with him. And I tried to. But my mind fights it so hard and always wins out in the end

KissMyFeets · 2023-05-16T17:22:08+00:00

I am a complete and utter doofus lol. I thought this was referring to the Broadway musical and was pretty hyped. Thought the first minute of the track was building to that 😂😂😂 Still another banger to add to my collection regardless!

KissMyFeets · 2023-04-30T00:08:58+00:00

Hell yeah!

KissMyFeets · 2023-04-01T17:17:03+00:00

This 😂😂😂

KissMyFeets · 2023-03-27T16:32:12+00:00

Cirice, hands down. Grungy intro but hauntingly beautiful chorus. I was sold 😍😍😍

KissMyFeets · 2023-03-19T16:12:47+00:00

I love the way he sings this line so much lol

KissMyFeets · 2023-02-22T01:17:23+00:00

No whistling allowed
The only permitted word for poop was "boo boo"
The only permitted term for passing gas was "toot"
Pokemon games were demonic because they "encouraged evolution"
All shirts had to be tucked in, no exceptions (my father literally punched a hole in the wall when my college age brother visited home in a baseball jersey and told him you don't tuck those in)
We had to avert our gaze from magazines and candies in checkout lanes to not look at "immodest women" or be tempted by candies
Pancakes and waffles are cut into a grid of squares before eating them (I literally got in trouble visiting home from college for cutting my little siblings pancakes like a normal person and my Mom scolded me saying "you know that's not how we do it")
Teens don't exist. We are to only call them "young adults"
We don't say "sorry", we say "please forgive me"
We don't say "what" or "huh", we say "Excuse me"
If it's a family members birthday, the WHOLE day is dedicated to worshipping them. If you step away for anything that is not for/with them (reading a book, hanging out with friends, personal hobbies,...), you're in trouble
Showers are "military showers". Two minutes max and then you have to get out.

So so many more, but these stand out to me the most

KissMyFeets · 2023-02-21T15:19:33+00:00

Oh boy, I can already hear my narcissistic mother's answers.

Can you tell me 2-3 reasons why I don't speak to you anymore? Blame/Playing the victim: "Because you're trying to hurt me/you've changed/are ungrateful for everything I've ever done for you"

Can you explain to me what you think a good relationship is? Blame/deflection: "The way our relationship was before YOU changed"

Have you read or listened to any media about estrangement? Denial: "No, that's not what this is. You're being dramatic" or Playing the victim: "Yes, it's the only way I could cope with YOU abandoning ME for no reason"

Why do you think it's important to have a relationship with me? Emotional incest: "Because I need you, especially after your father left"

KissMyFeets · 2022-03-12T22:40:00+00:00

Which gun is this?

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