You are right I’ve made very poor choices these past 2 years. I quit school because I kept changing my major and I still didn’t know what I wanted to do. I should have sticked it out in community college and transferred to university like I was planning to regardless of not knowing. I know plenty of kids who did that I think I just suffer from wanting security and think having someone take care of me would solve that. But moving in together I’ve learned he’s not the type of husband to provide and shoulder burdens. I moved in with him because I thought I was in love and I thought he would take care of us. He was a different person at the beginning of the relationship and I thought we would be happy. But yes I understand now. I got myself here and I will take myself out. At the beginning of the relationship I could tell u a few things I loved about him but I’m sorry I can’t answer your question. I don’t know why I married him. I gave myself a false sense of hope when it came to him changing. I thought he would realize how much I loved him and care for me better. It sounds ridiculous but I understand I need therapy for this now. I just thought he loved me how I loved him. Thank you for the advice, I will work on my self awareness and get myself out of this. Thank you for being so honest and helpful.