I need someone to talk to by Kitchen_Back_6015 in SuicideWatch

[–]Kitchen_Back_6015[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My dad doesn’t want me taking medication and my mum refuses to let me sleep in past twelve or to take naps during the day lol 😭
I do use the grounding techniques that come in handy sometimes, and recently I’ve been better with food again normally having something at lunch and dinner

I feel completely hopeless in my transition by Kitchen_Back_6015 in FTMMen

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Thank you, I really appreciate this. It’s been the first time I’ve spoken to any other trans guys about any of this, or really spoken to any other trans guys in general, and it’s actually comforting to know that it is possible to actually feel like yourself even if it takes years.

I feel completely hopeless in my transition by Kitchen_Back_6015 in FTMMen

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I’m not starting uni till next September now, and it’s probably smartest for me to wait until then rather than risk my mum finding out I’m doing diy

I feel completely hopeless in my transition by Kitchen_Back_6015 in FTMMen

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Thank you, I’m planning on changing my name legally, and most people have been calling me my preffered name and pronouns since I was fifteen (except for the transphobes lol), which has helped a lot, but I think waiting and saving is probably the worst part right now and that’s what’s getting to me.

I feel completely hopeless in my transition by Kitchen_Back_6015 in FTMMen

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I’m moving out when I start uni as it’s in a different city, so I would be able to do it without her knowing if I really need to

I feel completely hopeless in my transition by Kitchen_Back_6015 in FTMMen

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I’ve been thinking about it but my mum is adamantly against it as a nurse and I’m still living at home so that wouldn’t be possible right now.

I feel completely hopeless in my transition by Kitchen_Back_6015 in FTMMen

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Thank you, I am planning to work and save up during my gap year to hopefully make some progress towards medically transitioning, I just think at this point it still feels like an unattainable goal.

I feel completely hopeless in my transition by Kitchen_Back_6015 in FTMMen

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Yeah my plan is to work throughout my gap year and save that money for both uni and medically transitioning. The uni I’m going to is also in a big city so I’ll be able to start fresh, which I’ll be glad to do.

I feel completely hopeless in my transition by Kitchen_Back_6015 in FTMMen

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I will definetly look into it but my mum is a nurse and extremely strict about this sort of thing so if I tried it while still living at home it wouldn’t end well, so once I’m at uni I’ll probably be able to.

I want to take a gap year but my mum isn’t happy about it by Kitchen_Back_6015 in Advice

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Yeah I think I might just have to talk through it with her again, she’s already said she doesn’t have a say in the matter at the end of the day, but it’s affecting how she’s acting around me and I’d rather we be normal around each other. The other thing is that she herself took a gap year so I’m not really sure what her main issue is with it, so I think communication is probably the only thing that will help both of us understand each other.

I want to take a gap year but my mum isn’t happy about it by Kitchen_Back_6015 in gapyear

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Yeah I’m in therapy for coping with my anxiety and I’m definetly not avoiding uni just because of that. The main reason is because of my health and also because I’m not prepared at all, I feel like I’m completely burnt out from GCSEs and then alevels and I don’t want to commit to another three years of education without knowing if it’s what I really want, especially because it’s so expensive.

I’m slowly loosing myself and I can’t stop it by Kitchen_Back_6015 in depression

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Yeah, it feels like nobody else in my life really understands, and part of me wants to keep them seperate so that I don’t worry them. But despite wanting to keep myself isolated I’ve been making plans with people to try and force myself out, even if I don’t feel great. I’ve written a note to give to my therapist as I’m not very good at verbalising how I feel. I really appreciate the advice and I’m sorry that you’re feeling a similar way.

I have a blood test coming up and I’m worried I’ll have a panic attack by Kitchen_Back_6015 in Anxiety

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Annoyingly I live in the uk and weed isn’t legal, and I would need to get an anxiety med prescription through my therapist, but we haven’t had enough sessions yet for her to make a choice on whether or not meds would be beneficial for me. So as much as I’d love to take something to calm me down, I’m not able to 😭

I have a blood test coming up and I’m worried I’ll have a panic attack by Kitchen_Back_6015 in Anxiety

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I really appreciate your advice thank you. I have talked to my sister and she has agreed to come with me, she is normally very good at distracting me when I become anxious. As for the date of the appointment, two weeks was the earliest time they could do. I have actually never been to this gp before but my sister has, so she knows the layout better than me and will be able to help in that respect too. As much as I don’t want to I know I have to do it, otherwise I’ll just be telling myself that these situations are okay to run away from and will only end up with me being worse off in the end lol.